nurulnabila

2009-02-09T20:22:00.002+08:00

school was fine today . except for tht WAAAANNG's lesson -.- first period was sci . got back science test , scored 20 out of 30 for tht test . it was super unbelievable , cuz i dun understand a thing tht i wrote on tht piece of paper . Ajmal scored 28 . damn it lah , can ? -.- next is Art . hv to draw the repeated patterns . then recess , then history . i kind of lyk history now ^^ during history , i teased 'him' by saying ily to him . cooooool or wad ? (: then , its MATHS . feel lyk dying man . stupid WANG ! she called out the ppl whu leave blanks in the worksheet . she start nagging non-stop . [eh , wang . lyk i care ah , fool.] then , its literature . ohh , i likeeeeee :D shared some stories wif Aleks . talk here , talk thr , not paying attention . aft sch , head off to mcd wif Shafzsx , Shikzs , Elyna and Adika . while eating at mcd , saw the guy wif no dick . then , standing behind him was MR H !! :DD i was staring and smiling at H , then si jantan sial tu perasan , thinking tht i smile at him . then tht guy smile bck . eeeeew ? i dun nid a smile frm you , no dickies ! ;D when H left , Mr A and frens entered . wah , today cnt be any better siols . ohh , i likeeeee XD thenthen , tht Adika keep making me 'melata' . [nasib si Mr A tkde pat situ . kalau tk , dea dh lari siols . -.-]
k , end of story . ;D

random.

2009-02-08T16:13:00.002+08:00

gosh . tmrw , schooling . damn ! sister is nt going to sch for 1 week cuz she has chicken pox . unfair siols ! kalau gyni , aku pon nk ponteng ah siak XD these days , i've been falling more and more for Mr A and H . idk why . H cheered me up and msged me until my pp8 is going low -.- and , ytd , i persuaded Dad to buy me a $128 top up card but Kak Mira hv to ruin everything . [ akak , u pay for everything eh . mke sure i get my top up card when eur pay comes.] wokay , chatted wif Syahidah and Ajmal just now . yes , well .. Ajmal and I always argued online -.- (siak eh , mal . bsk kau tanggung ah . ;D) Aidil asked me out just now but i feel kind of lazy to get my butt off the comp seat . yes , i've been sitting and staring into the computer screen for hours alr . His feelings towards me has started to develop again.
Okay , well ... i hv no more things to rant abt . so yeah . gudbye.

2009-02-07T13:08:00.002+08:00

im currently rotting at home . yes , ROTTING . i hv no werk to do . early in the morning , i was asleep when mum called my hp , asking me to get out of bed and fetch my sister frm religious class . seriously pathetic . i was thinking of sleeping in todae tpi tidak kesampaian XD kay yes , i woke up wif 7 new messages frm various people . i only replied H's message[s] :D aft fetching sis , straight away sit on the comp and do the usual stuffs . oh yes ! Dad is coming home tonight and , just lyk last week , we will be going out ard 9+ pm .. today , idk whr the hell we're going -.-

; history homework [checked !] home econs project done ! (:

2009-02-06T21:10:00.002+08:00

school was okay at first . physical education , we hv to run 5 rounds ard the field . and we have to lyk , throw discus (?) ah , i throw the thingy the furthest . :DD kay , aft tht , history . as usual , BORING . now , i got along fine wif Aleks . (: ohh ! and , when Ms Kwok haven't arrive yet , Rahim was lyk , peeking to my classroom . yes , the guy wif no dick , was seeing wad i was doing . in the end , he got shouted by me ^^ recess was when the panicky feeling came . hahhh ! i was so panicked , i thought my wallet was missing . went to the toilet , search high and low for it , but still , it was nowhere to be seen . in the end , it was in my bag , in between my books . XD k , then .. home econs for two whole periods . made chicken kebab . the chicken , after it was put inside the oven , was damn freaking hard . eur teeth can pluck out anytime , manzsx . -.-

finished school , went home to change to my ncdcc uniform . for the first time in history , i folded the sleeves myself ! woo .. good achievement , baybeh (: Adika was super duper cute ! he has a sense of humour . yes , aku sukaaaaaaa dea . hahs , suka as in a fren , not more than tht . [Mr A , one and only .] XD ncdcc very tiring . run here , run there . march here , march thr . yes , its lyk tht . when wanting to fall in , saw Rahim , sitting at the side , watching Atiqah and hidung penyek play netball . yes , my ex-boyfriend waited for Atiqah and hidung penyek to finish their cca ! and , aft tht , they will go home TOGETHER . wif Rahim sending Atiqah home . aww , how sweet ? -.- my day ended off with seeing Mr A ! (:

; Rahim kental . Tindik telinga , dye rambut . Lelaki tkd [toooot] jer buat gytu .

2009-02-05T18:58:00.002+08:00

school was sad . 3 tests in one day . stupid , manzxs ! science , i think i'll fail . as for eng , the text is rubbish -.- maths test , for the very first time , im able to do it ! hahs .. (: cool manzxs . so yeah , Mrs Chang was nagging at us non-stop when we arrived late from the comp lab . [She should seriously blame Mrs Koh , not us .] she was scolding us in front of Mr Jana and 2p2 , mind you ! yes , 2v6's reputation fell . gebooooosh ~ yes , im falling for him more day by day . ^^ another achievement ! yessa :D

aft sch , decided to stay bck at sch to wait for Shekyn and Sidah . so , in between , we had lots of fun[s] . Sha and I wanted to mke a sng for Rahim . people , go to youtube and type 'Oh Baby' in the search engine . so , we are going to change the Oh Baby's song to Oh Babi . we cnt think of any adverbs or adjectives or words to replace the positive words in the lyrics -.- we wanted people to give some ideas ! all i can see just now is , Ajmal , Aidil , Matin and Jaz , too engrossed in the psp . Rafiq was too busy emo-ing and Elyna cant produce ideas XD the best person to look for is Shekyn . so , we waited for Shekyn to come . but , Shekyn and Sha are going to JP to buy valentines' day prezzie for Azizi . (: kay , maybe tmrw or something , we'll change the sngs .

Just now , Shafiqah , Atiqah and Rahim were at the canteen . yes , they hung out together . they were real , damn close . urm yeah , i stopped myself frm being jealous . yes , i failed ONCE AGAIN . they left , Sidah and Shekyn just finished their class and we went our separate ways . Sidah and I planned to go home cuz we were so damn bored and tired . otw to the gek poh bus stop , saw Rahim and gang near the playgrd . okay , this time , I suceeded in not getting jealoused . therefore , me and Sidah talked abt H at the bus stop . Sidah was lyk , talking abt him LOUDLY . it was so obvious tht Rahim overheard it -.- i walked home , passing by Rahim and i caught him staring at me .

2009-02-04T18:14:00.002+08:00

school was so (insert word) today . so sudden , tht russian guy started behaving weirdly . it wasn't my fault , i didn't spread and tell a werd to anyone . and , i get blamed for all this . thanks ah , blonde-haired guy ! oh yes , Mr A drew something which says [ Mr A love ....] okay , fil up the name , ppl . i dun think life is getting any better . now tht im single , thr are more ppl confessing their love to me . my best fren , saed tht he loved me , not my cuzen . [Shasha , u shld noe whu im talking abt.] ok , all these freaks me out ! the blonde-haired guy whu is anti-muslim and anti- gurls saed tht he lyks me . my bestbest fren frm 2p2 confessed his love to me , H actually saed tht he lyks and love me . ok wow ! thr are more . but , im sure those victims wouldn't want to lose face here . especially at my blog ^^

kay , im getting crazy day by day . whenever i see Check Hwee , i will shout I Love You . whenever i shout I Love you , i will sae it to Check Hwee . cool or wad ..? hahs ! (: english enrichment , is really boring ! my admirer is nt in the same grp as me . Aidil and Matin keep making me have stomach cramps frm all tht laughing . the teacher-in-charge kept teasing me and will always release us a few minutes late . Sha's handphone was me wif me just now . and her phone rang ! the sng 'My Hands' started playing when teacher's teaching . its good at the same time , thr is music for me to listen . yes , Sha's handphone message saved my life frm being bored . :D

2009-02-03T19:01:00.004+08:00

im so lazy to blog nowadays . okay , school was fine today because the normal techs went to ITE . cool or wad ? one whole day , not getting to see tht jerk's face , i was actually okay and muchmuch happier . whenever he was thr , he will tend to lyk , stare ? and yeah , tk abes2 nk cemburukan aku . i dun mind , actually . i kind of found a new person to replace him in my heart but , idk hw to express it . be it whether its A or H , oh , both can mke me happy the same . (: lyk the terms Zaza always use , fickle-minded . yes , im fickle-minded . my heart doesnt know , whether i want to be wif A , H or living life alone . somehow , being single is stress-free . but , wads the use of being single when , at the same time , im heartbroken ? everything , mkes sense . but , in my case , it doesn't mke any sense . Rahim messaged me , asking how am i . the answer tht i hv to give him , "Im twisted and torn up inside . Just because i cnt frgt a jrek tht broke my hart." just lyk dat , he apologised . seriously , i dun nid an apology frm him . why must he say everything for every single thing he did ? everything has happened now . by saying sorry , he cnt change anything .

after sch , went to mcd . wanted to meet H there ! but , in the end , he said he cnt mke it . oh , shoot ! it was still early , and we went to pioneer mall to buy my coloured contact lens . so yeah , it took only a few mins to buy it . therefore , we headed to the playgrd near pioneer mall . thr , we burn all the photos of me and him . the feeling of seeing all those pics , ohmy . i really cnt describe the feelings and emotions which surrounds me . the russian guy , really shocked me today . he confessed tht he liked me . cool shit ? oh . and , i loveeeeeee saying I LOVE YOU to Check Hwee . (: we don't really mean it , though . hahs ! if i saed I LOVE YOU to Mr A , oh wow . it'll be a miracle . ;D

2009-02-01T12:56:00.002+08:00

why do problems keep acting up ? when i was abt to frgt Rahim , thr will always b someone whu wuld actually remind me of hym . thanks , people D': Rasidah keep mking me think abt hym . lyk earlier just now , she actually told me tht she's sitting at the playgrd whr Rahim , me and her always hang out at . yes , tht piece of information mkes me think abt the tyms tht i had wif him . chatted wif kak Dilaa earlier . she told me tht she saw Rahim and Atiqah hold hands la , tht la , this la . haish , it really tears me up inside . yes , thousands of ppl asked me to cool down and relax . kak Dilaa gave me hope to accept him bck in my life . if i actually accepted him in my life , then what will happen ? will i be happy ? will those memories between me and him come bck again ? am i able to experience the love he used to give me ? or will i lock myself in the bedroom , crying ? thr are another 1001 reasons tht i wanna list out . but , i wanna stp thinking abt him . and i really want to try .

to Rahim :- Are you satisfied now ? are you actually satisfied tht im suffering now ? im sure you do , ryt ? wtv u do to me , im all torn and twisted up inside .

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember 'till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
A memory I want to forget

dilemma.

2009-01-31T11:12:00.003+08:00

yes , im feeling a bit down ytd. my mood was lyk , changed ? i keep scolding Aleks although he wasn't in the wrong. ironical mayb ? ncdcc was quite okay. quite a number of sec 1's joined ncdcc. i think Sha and Shekyn did a grt job in asking them to join. hahs (: i feel kinda sick today , idk why. oh , abt ytd , it really mkes me cry. i've been crying inside my hart all dis while but nobody can see it cuz i've been hiding behind a lie. i feel so useless , feel so used. idk what happened to me , all of a sudden , i want him bck. the jerk whu broke my heart and keep mking me cry. yes , i want him bck. but ever since i found out what happened ytd , my heart totally changed. i have no fucking idea why he did tht. he thinks tht its so cool ? or is it tht he's been led astray ? or perhaps he's been influenced and eventually mixed ard wif the wrong frens ? oh , all i want to see is him being happy wif wtv choice he made. im trying to move on wif my life. im trying very hard to do so.

2009-01-28T19:56:00.002+08:00

today ; i feel very jealoused when Sidah and Shah (the hawtest guy in sec 1) are together. everytime i see them together , those memories of me n Rahim actually came back to my mind. all of a sudden . wtv it is , i just hope tht Sidah and Shah will laz lng. (:

coming back , english enrichment was boring. he was nt in the same grp as me and thts really frustrating. haaaa (: ! butbut , for algebra bridging programme tmrw , he's gonna be in the same grp as me ! cool or wad ? yes , blh la hilangkan rindu sikit . :D overall , today was super fun ^^ after sch , went to Gek Poh to print out pics for Art . Zac Efron pic , is going to be in front of my art folio. cooooool or wad ? XD so , its gonna be my pic wif Zac Efron pic. cheyyy , mcm couple la siak ! kay , dreams finally come true (: mister , im sorry for rejecting the mcFlurry tht u bought. :D still , at least Matin finished it up , ryt ? (=

; Mr A , thank you.

realisation ? oh perhaps.

2009-01-26T17:52:00.002+08:00

basically , the reason why tht i deleted the post abt Rahim , is because , abg Syahril made me realise my mistakes. Rafiq , too , gave me advice. Rafiq saed , let god punish him ; we shouldn't trt him tht way. Abg Syahril saed , no matter how bitter the medicine is , we hv to swallow it. thanks , abg and Rafiq. (:

Sha and Shekyn came over to my hse to study earlier and we had so much fun[s] doing something over the net. ryt , guys ? haha ! today , i actually spent my whole time sitting in front of the laptop and chatchatchat. i was hoping tht mayb Mr A culd go on9. but , hha ! .. i forgot tht Mr A is going to Pulau something2 .. so , yeah. i get to msg him ; which is only , 4-5 msgs ? oh yeah , sort of. tmrw , going to the zoo wif Abg Syahril , Kak Mira , irritating sister[s] and Shikin. XD im lyk , super hungry at the moment .. all i've eaten today was chocolate and orange. siak !

- Mr A , aww man ! i miss you too much =( come bck soon frm the pulau , pls ? heish.

2009-01-24T16:58:00.002+08:00

okay yes. holidays for 4 days ? big yay -.- ! so sadly , Mr A is going off to malaysia and he'll be bck only on tuesday. so , i wont be hving anyone to chat wif or msg wif for the next 3 days. okay , i sound really pathetic and sad. okaaayy , enough of Mr A for now. my cat ; Puteri , is missing ! yes , she dissapeared to nowhere. mum is getting flustered and she's been crying. [singapore is going to flood , mind you.] we hv no fcuking idea whr she went to and i've been searching for her up and down ; still , nowhere to b found. i guess dis is it ? ok , bye :D

; Mr A , imissyou so much.

2009-01-23T16:09:00.002+08:00

currently ; i had nothing to do at the moment. thts exactly the reason why i blogged. ah ok , school was superb today. :D had home econs for the last 2 periods. made pancake which doesnt look lyk one and made chocolate milkshake. siaaakk , sedap bodoh. XD and yes , too bad tht the guy wasnt in the same home econs room as me. sedih siak ! XC Sha and Shekyn went to my hse , planned to study but ended up watching 'another cinderella story'. ohh , coolio ryt ? (: now , currently chatting wif Mr Khai and Sabrina! dowdy and Mr A <3 hahs , k bye.

; mr A , thanks.ily.

rahim BASTARD.

2009-01-22T17:21:00.004+08:00

im just so effed up wif today. haaa , idk why. well , yes. mayb i do noe -.- lessons were as per normal. had science test earlier just nw. wah seyh , easy gylerrrrr ! (; after sch , meet up wif Li Yuan darla at the toilet. :D hahaa , we wanted to camwhore. but , ended up , getting only 1 pic taken. baik kaper ? XD at the toilet , received a call frm Sha and she saed tht she wanted to meet me urgrently. ah yes , thrs gooood news. Rahim sent a letter to me stating all the bad words. Sha and Rafiq wanted to stp me frm being dissapointed and yes , i thank you guys fr tht. aft reading it , i've realised tht i really hate him and tht letter made me stp loving him. yes , i thank him fr tht. went to kfc wif Shekyn , Sha and Rafiq. aft tht , we went to the opposite block and we burnt the letters Rahim gave to me during primary 6. trust me , all those words and sentence he wrote on tht letter , are all EMPTY PROMISES.

to Rahim bastard :-
Ehh , babi ! Wadever u saed to me in tht letter , I dun care la , fucker. It clearly shows tht you dont hv balls down thr. You think im gong to cry for you again ? Hah , fat hope lah siak ! Kau perasaan yang si Atiqah suka kau tu apsl ? Haha , dh sah giler. Siapa ntah nk suka jantan mcm kau. A guy like you , I dont even nid one ! Ehh , ramai org beratur lah , nk mintak std ngn aku. Kau ingat aku heran sgt ? Go to hell lah , fucker !

draggy.

2009-01-20T17:50:00.002+08:00

Im trying very hard , to move on with this life of mine , without him by my side. i do get a bit teensy weensy jealous when he's ard Atiqah and Shafiqah. After school , I saw the 2p2 guys walking behind Atiqah and Shafiqah , kind of lyk escorts. It really pains me inside. I've been trying , to forget him , leave him behind but , all this tkes a very long time. At times , I would really love it if he actually come back to me. But , I noe , lyk all of you people said , he's not worth grieving over for. I specially wanna thank Rafiq for actually saying all those meaningful things to me. He made me realise that I don't need a guy now to survive. And of course , a special thanks to all those taggers who gave me advice(: im keeping it , yaw !

School was extra boring and draggy today. Number 1 , I waited for Rasidah lyk a mad girl early in the morning , but still , she was lateee ! But , I managed to bump into Shahiran and Shahril ! Wooooo ..! Gerek kaper ? :D Well , when I reached school , sheeeeeeeeshh ! I didn't get a chance to copy Science homework. Ohh , thanks ah , Sidah ! -.- Number 2 , it was super duper boring to hear Ms Shalinee talktalktalk and Mrs Chang nagnagnag. Siak jer. Aft sch , go library wif Zaza , Sidah , Rafiq , Shud , Shekyn and Sha. Oh yes , Jurong West Sec people just do not respect people. Just imagine eh , eur actually studying at the library , then they keep disturbing you and mking a hell of noise. Then , we get the blame frm the library assistant. (!!!!) Oh nvm.

bodoh pey jantan.

2009-01-18T17:34:00.002+08:00

ohh well. i just feel tht girls are like , super gullible ? yeah. guys want them , girls actually obey-ed. so yeah , all girls nid was the loveee frm guys. is it really tht hard ? why must guys act dis way ? acting as if they're hard to get or whatsoever. why eyh ? wad genes or hormones in them tht turned them likewise ? haaa , siak. one thing is , once they're bored wif their current gf , they will kick them to one corner while saying ,"U , i want a break." or "We just cnt go on anymre. Lets go our separate ways." or the drastic way is , when the girl ask whether they still wanna be wif them or nt , they will sae , "Ok , no." [npk2nya , aku nie menyindir si jantan sial tu.] ok , lets get bck. once they kick them to one corner bcuz they like another girl. [eh , bdk. attitude problem perh?] haha. i mean like , why must the girls always be their dog ? its unfair lah kan ? guys wif this kind of problem , please ah. grow up lah sikit ! jgn asyik berperangai gyni je. yg sakit hati in the end siapa ? pmpn jgk kan ? sdp2 hati jer buat nie sume. yerlah , utk korg , senang utk lupakan ex korg tu sume. utk pmpn2 tu ? susah kan. diorg dh bagi sepenuh hati diorg pat kau , abeh kau treat them gytu. alamak. aku kasi pelempang skali baru tawu ! hiyaaaakkkduuusssh !~

-Shekyn , mission accomplished :D

our brk-up.

2009-01-16T18:17:00.003+08:00

16 July 2007. the day tht we were officially together. but now , so sadly , it has to end. 15 January 2009 ( 4.53 pm), is the day we went our separate ways. its just too bad tht everything hv to happen now. those tears .. trust me , its never ending. hundreds of ppl actually gave me advice. even my own parents. i guess dis is fate ? tht we hv to go our separate ways ? oh , maybe. i feel lyk everything is a dream. i just cnt accept the fact tht we hv broken up. :(

ytd was really super duper sad. he keeps avoiding me. and i hv to noe the real truth. he has been hanging out mre often wif Shafiqah and Atiqah and lesser and lesser time wif me. of course , i was dissapointed. k well , i finally got the chance to talk to him.

Lala : U asl nie ? Asl skg you mcm avoid i gytu ?
Rahim : Mana ada avoid. Tdi pagi u nk bbl ngn i , u sendiri ckp yg ada ramai org.
Lala : U ada otak kan ? Kan blh bbl pat tmpt lain ?
Rahim: *silent*
Lala : U maseh sayangkan i ke tk nie ?
Rahim : Ntah ?
Lala : Mana ada ntah ? its either yes/no.
Rahim : yes/no.
[stepped Rahim's foot]
Rahim : Klau tk ?
Lala : Kita brk.
Rahim : Ok , no.

Just lyk tht , we were over. i was crying. idk why , but i just cnt stp. while i see you ? you tke it normally and u were happy. its okay lah kan. im leading my life , alone. with bestest friends supporting me all the way (:

- thank you so much for all the sweeet memories. whenever im wif you , i felt lyk im the happiest girl on earth ; lucky to hv a boyf lyk you. those memories we had in the park , was unforgettable. its the sweetest memory , aye ? so yeah , if u happen to be std-ing wif another girl , i just wish you luck (: && i hpe eur happy now ? yeah , okay. trust me , i still love you and i'll forever do. those photos of you and me , will always be in my wallet ; in my room. thanks , Rahim. thanks (':

~ Meninggalkanku tanpa perasaan
Hingga ku jatuhkan airmata
Kekecewaan ku sungguh tak berarah
Biarkan ku harus bertahan

one aft another ..

2009-01-12T18:57:00.002+08:00

another long day at sch. well , yes. it has been specially lng. idk why ? i planned to skip sch just nw. thts because , i cnt bear looking at him. everytime i look at him , my heart hurts. everytime my heart hurts , it will be because i look at him. -.-" i actually broke the record. not talking to him today ~ woooo! he was the one whu started to talk to me. hah , dea mcm guilty gytu lah kan ? his hand , he wrote there NR and thr's a love sign there. ingatkan nk taruk RA pat situ kan ? tk sangka pulak dea nk taruk nama aku pat situ. kay , gerek. tmrw .. ? wad we gonna do ? another long day at sch ? whereby i hv to look at the subjects' teacher's face again ? oh yes. ntah kenape eh , aku nie , sejak semenjak nie , aku suka tanya org , abeh jwb sendiri. kay , bgs.

its really sad. knowing tht my best bunch of juniors fought over friendship. well yes , been there , done that ! so , yeah. they're lyk , scolding each other , calling each other names. aku mcm , tk smpi hati tgk diorg gytu. they blame her , she blame them. yerlah kan ? dua2 side ada bukti masing2 .. aku nie ? aku tk tawu nk side yg maner.
to Syahidah : tke it easy , okay dear. thts my only advice. && rmb , i'll always be bhind you , supporting every decision u mke.
to Sabrina : i understand hw u feel. just mke sure eur happy wif eur bunch of frens and dont let dis thingy stress you out.
to Dyna : darla , dun be so hard on Syahidah. well , yes. lyk wad Syasyah saed , eur one stubborn girl. but a cute one at that. try giving Syahidah another chance. mayb ? yeah.
to Dian : u may hv eur new frens. but dun frgt eur used-to-be best fren ; Syahidah , okay ! ;D

badbad.

2009-01-09T22:24:00.003+08:00

Safra trip was fun. fun bcuz the food was super duper nice. i hate the long talks tht they give. haha. kay , tkpe. Mr Christopher Chua made us laugh until i have stomach cramps. wait2 , u still hv not added Aidil's jokes. fullamak ! buat aku semput siaaak :D overall , its funfun heh.

today was seriously a bad day. badbadbad ~ and yes. i dun even noe whose fault is it. whatever it is , im sorry if i actually did anything bad or made you upset or whatsoever. i didnt do it intentionally. it was because of you , thrs a reason behind all those things i did. Sha , Shekyn , Sidah , thanks for all the advice , okay. i'll surely mke the correct choice. thanks for supporting me all the way (:

~ im really sorry for all those things. im nt trying to be flirty wif guys or wad. i waited for you to msg this morning , hoping you'd sae tht you will mke it to meet me. i've waited lyk one crazy woman but you didn't msg. i tke it tht you wont be going sch wif me. and so , i went to sch wif dinie. bcuz i was all alone. and yet , you saed all those hurtful words to me. during recess , u went ahead and sat wif eur admirer. the whole of laz yr and dis yr , tell me , when is the time tht u ever sat wif me in sch , during recess ? thr was never a time. but wif eur admirer ? you were the only guy thr , Rahim. yet u expect me to control all this ? wads mre , one of her frens liked you ! you knew tht all along , dont you ? thrs nothing i cn do. except for crying.

- Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku

XC

2009-01-07T15:40:00.002+08:00

one minute , we were fine. the nxt minute , we were not. bby , i just feel we're drifting apart. you wif eur frens , and me wif my frens. when can dis ever stp !? :[

2009-01-05T19:39:00.003+08:00

today , nothing special going on. k , lets start , shall we ? haha. in the morn , i was lyk , getting ready to go to sch and then si rasidah msg me , asking me whr am i. baru kul 6.30 wui ! rambut pn blm sikat , dea da tanya aku pat ane. -.-" reached sch ard 6.55 ? yea , kind of. the first i saw was atika frm 1s5 -.- then , i saw dyna and shuhadah. k , i was too engrossed in the sng Joe Jonas sang. haha , blh cair siak. loooool. anw , went to meet rasidah in front of the locker. slalunyer , klau aku gy pat diorg , Rejab slalu kecoh2. yg nie , dea diam lah pulak kan ? hah ! (: oh yes , i wanna buy notebook , but end up tht the bookshop is closed ! boohoo XC nvm lah kan. and yes ! i saw my mr shy early in the morning. cute siak matair aku , mcm kucing-kucing aku pat umah XD

during recess , biasa lah kan. kita kecoh2 sikit. :D aku diberi penampar oleh si rasidah tu kerana aku sungguh slow + blur to the max. baik pah ? -.-" saw the sec 1 bitches : omg ! so bitchy ! XD seriously , i wanted to sleep during lessons. yerlah kan , siapa yg tkkan tido , cikgu asyik membebel psl expectations ajer ! =_- ok lorh. haaaaaa. bye . :D

thanks , guys.

2009-01-03T10:45:00.007+08:00

i really do miss my sec 1 times. everytime mr jana/mr subas call 1v6 , i tend to look up and look at him. as if i am still in sec 1. seriously , i miss all the fun i had last yr. problems , jealousy etc. well , yeah. i still remembered the first time i went to pioneer sec. the frens i had in my class was Aidil and Matin. in class , Allyn was the first one to talk to me , asking for a pen. i was sitting alone , no one to talk to. i wanted to mke frens , but all i can see is , people hving their own frens. so , yeah. i dun want to disturb them. when we were dismissed , i was walking all alone bck home. Rahim was nowhere to be seen and at tht point of time , i was used to going bck home right aft sch. then , i came to noe Zaza and Elyna. i hv been hanging out wif them until i forgot tht i actually hv a boyf. we joined the same cca together , eat together , go everywhere together. soon aft , i came to know Rasyidah. she was really outgoing and knows to mke people laugh. Ms Cai even asked me to sit beside her in class. so , things were going on pretty well.

Rahim broke the news to me tht Shazlinda admired him and he admired Atiqah. thts when jealousy arose. every night , i will always cry to sleep , thinking whether to end all this. but , i endured the pain and every time i see Atiqah , i will have the feeling of hating her more and more. i even asked Zaza to msg Atiqah , asking her to stp seducing my boyf. tht was when i realised tht i've made the biggest mistake in my life. Rahim was angry wif me and nvr even bother to talk to me. i've tried my best to make up for everything. i even personally went to Atiqah and said sorry , and explained everything to her.

Then , Zaza , Syidah , Elyna and i had a fight and i didnt even talk to them. i cant be bothered. so , thts when i hung out wif shasha. she was the best & only cousin i had in pioneer and i decided to hang out wif her since she has friends problem and i've got my friends problem as well. then , idk hw but shasha and i are drifting apart. we no longer hang out wif each other during recess and it hurts me.

Right then , i met Sha , Shekyn , Natyqa , Shud and Rasidah. they were fun to hang out wif and whats mre , they're in the same cca as me. [except for shud] we hung out everyday , aft sch , during recess , before sch and during and aft cca. so , all i can say is , they were the best best best friends i had in sec 1. thanks guys. :')

Rahim ; (the best boyf)
i actually spent the whole of sec 1 yr wif him.
bie , thanks for everything & most importantly ,
thanks for giving me the sweetest romance & love tht i'll nvr forget.

Natyqa (the best friend.)
she used to come to me for advice.
she's the sweetest friend I had. (:

Shekyn ; (the gyler yet wonderful fren)
she's always thr to mke jokes and mke all of us laugh.
she always puts on a smile when she's with us(:

rasidah ; (the bestbest fren.)
the best fren i had since primary 2.
well yeah , she's my kaki gerek. :D

sha ; (the bestwonderfulcutest fren)
like shikin , she always mkes jokes for all of us.
she was thr to give us advice. ;D

shud ; (my besssstttt fren.)
our love doctor. always thr to mke us laugh.
XD

Zaza !
the first fren i get to know when i first came to pioneer(:
she's the best damn thing.

first day,

2009-01-02T16:14:00.002+08:00

woo ;D first day of sch. as per usual , teacher start off wif RULES. okay , so , well. there are a lot of things tht we hv to obey -.- [yerlahkan , cikgu garang , mesti lah rules kene garang jgk.] so , okay. discussed abt the class commitees just now. Ajmal is officially the chairperson of 2v6 :D Sofia is the vice-chariperson. yes , i hate Goh Check Hwee. he actually nominated me as the vice chairperson. [sekali aku kasi penampar mailakat aku nie.] votevotevote , Aleks nominate me as the welfare chairperson -.- then , i was APPOINTED to be the welfare chairperson. wth ? yelah , aper2 je. teacher changed our seats and i hv to sit beside Aleksander Kulish , the angmoh guy in my class. whoopee ! im so 'happy!' -.- seriously siak , when lyon must sit in front of me , i cant see the whiteboard. yelah , badan lyon tu BESAR. tinggi pulak tu. abeh aku nie ? pendek. =_-

during recess , saw my mr shy. heeeeh ! baru satu hari tk jumpa , dh rindu. mcm mana nie ? :D didnt talk to him tht much bcuz he was wif the MATs gang. yerlah. k , one bad news. Elyna asked
for brk wif Akmal. Siak jer kn ? Kesian siak Akmal. wokay , i noe .. Meera is trying to keep Akmal happy but to no avail. thanks eh , elyna ! psl buat kwn aku gytu. problems nvr fail to pop up. sheeeeesh ! k , dh. bye.

; Bie ! I Rindu U ! :(

2009-01-01T18:31:00.002+08:00

2009 ? well , i just dont feel the joy dis yr. watched countdown on the tv , i was ALONE in the living room. sister mira was working , sister zana was away to chalet , mum & lil sisters were sleeping. where's the joy , people ? when it struck 12 ytd , all i saed was ,"Ohh , Whoopee ! 2009 ! -.-". dad wasn't in singapore. if he is here last night , its gonna be grt. oh well. nextnext.

went out to jp wif rasidah earlier just now. bought some sch stuffs for tmrw. we had so much fun and , rasidah just realised tht it was the first time she treat me to something. -.- she treated me to egg tart. hah , thanks anyway. tmrw , school day. shitto , i gotta wake up EARLY in the morning. && yes , im gonna wear contacts to sch for the first 2 mths till dad actually bought me a new specs. tmrw , class interaction for the first two periods -.- then followed by science and english aft recess. so very the leceh =_= aft sch tmrw , gonna meet up wif ebynie to give her the money for contacts. frm pioneer , fly all the way to juying. baik kapeee ? hha.

last but not least , i hate parents who loveees commenting on other people's children. its my pictures , why must u care ? to those kids who actually showed their mums the pictures i took with rahim , go to hell lah. once they see the pics , they will be ,"eh eh. kecik2 dh mcm gini." if i were thr , i will say , "Aku pey suka ah ! Gbr aku perh , bkn gbr kau ! Kau nk jaga tepi kain org lain ni asl ? Sebelom kau beri pendapat kau tu , tgk lah dulu prangai anak kau. Mcm lah diorg bnyk bgs. Ntah2 , blkg kau , diorg buat keje lagi tk senonoh dri aku! Tk puas hati perh , aku amek gbr cam tu ? Jgn tgk ah klau sakit mata. -__________-" really , i hate tht kind of parents.

school ? boohoo !

2008-12-31T13:26:00.003+08:00

heh , school reopen liaaaooo ! XC i thot the yr will be grt for me. butbutbut , im so WRONG ! ;x omigosh , i hate my form teacher ! && , my class is on the laz floor some mre. grrr ! :( but , the BEST part is , Rahim's class is just beside mine. wooo ! :D k , mcm gini. hari2 aku blh kluar klas , ngintip dea ke aper eh , klau da menggatal. XD so , yeah. my form teacher had high expectations on us. mentang2 kita nie bdk express. tkpe lah eh , aslkn ada class dea pat sebelah. huahua ! hah , k , bye.

:(

2008-12-28T14:28:00.000+08:00

i actually lose the earring bby gave me. :( shoot , i feel lyk crying. damn it.

thanks kak mira(:

2008-12-27T20:15:00.002+08:00

ah yes. bby went bck to telok blangah today XC sedih siak.

i didnt get to msg him , his batt low. then , ard 4 sumthing , he msg-ed me using his mum hp. saying tht he'll be going to telok blangah soon.
siaksiak. gy telok blangah mcm nk gy australia lah gytu kan. hahs ! (:
bought sch books today in the morning. mak kau , ingatkan tk ramai org. bila smpi jer , ader jer org beratur. mak dh bingit siols. :D
everything settled , followed mum to gek poh to buy some stuffs. then , went home for awhile , put the things and mum & i sneaked out the hse.
[inilah dea , mak tknk adq2 yg kecoh ikut. XD]
aft mum deposit her money , went home. on the bus , saw syafiq. (!!!)
heh , sama height ngn aku siot. :@ he nvr notice me , though. gahhs !
ah abeh , sister wrap my sch books and sister & i went out to jp.
before tht , we go to gek poh. sis bought pp8 card and a hp. the pp8 card was for me.
nyeahah ! [bill dh melambung , terpaksa tkr pp8.]
reached jp , sis & i went ard to search for my sch bag. i've always wanted a new bag ! haha.
mum expects me to use the bag i had dis yr. [ma , tk glam uh.]
she bought for me a zinc bag. hahs ! (:
cost ard 42.90. thanks eh , kak ! if i hv $$ , i'll trt u to ice-cream someday. huahua ! XD
sister bought doraemon blanket && wth , i saw mickey mse blanket ! (!!!!)
if i hv the money ah , surely i buy lah ! heh , tpi skg nga tkd $$ (:
k , abeh ? sister ordered kfc. abeslah criter .. :D

2008-12-26T18:19:00.002+08:00

it was uber fun hanging out wif rahim and rasidah.
well yeah , i've been hanging out wif them lately. (:
so okay , i left home at ard 11.50 lyk dat. ard thr uh.
met rahim under my block and we met up wif rasidah at gek poh.
went to sch for awhile cuz rasidah wants to buy her blouse and skirt. -___________-
denden , we went jurong point , toured ard thr for awhile.
[ah yer , aku jdi gila straight away bila npk mickey mouse nyer bende.]
ah k , no werk to do , we hung ard under the void deck.
we story-tell abit. ard 3 lyk dat , rahim n me sent sidah home.
so , yeah. mcm boring gytu , tk dpt hang out ngn rahim smpi kul 6.30. D':
ah ok. bye..

systa mira.

2008-12-25T21:57:00.002+08:00

woo ;D hahs. i simply dont know why i uploaded those piccas..
oh well , it goes to show im PROUD to hv brother-in-lawS to be. :D
kakak2 ku , aku gurau jer eh. ;D
k , yeah. rahim asked me out tmrw since he'll be going bck to telok blangah the day aft.
i mean , i seriously want to go ! but , ya know. i've been going out often lately.
if i go out again tmrw , mum will surely scold. huhu .
k , tkpe. [for the sake of matair ah !] ;D
so , yeah. just now , ard 7 plus ? yeah , me n sister went out to jp WIF her sprained ankle.
she will go 'ooo ! aahh !' actually , not she uh. its WE. huahua.
[inilah dea , bdk yg suka nah melatah.] XD
sister treated me too ice chocolate from starbucks . i cant rmb whether its ice chocolate or ice cocoa .
[stm lah wad.]
ah yeah , im posting to keep dis blog alive once again. so , bye.
XD

day out.

2008-12-24T18:49:00.002+08:00

well yes. today has been pretty hectic. haaaaa !
i was supposed to wake up at ard 11 ? && yarh , thanks to rasidah's wake up call tht woke me up.
[biasa la , bdk tkde keje. pagi2 buta dh kejut org -.-]
so yeah. left my hse ard 11.30 and meet up wif dearest boyf at gek poh.
chatted otp wif rasidah and argued over some matters. hahs! (:
kk , den .. headed off to rasidah's hse because we precisely had NOTHING to do.
her parents are not at home , so .. mulalah gila2 kita yer. :D
watched spongebob squarepants and shrek 3 and we kept on laughing .. hoho!
left sidah's hse ard 2.30 ? yah , and rahim and me went to fetch iqah at taman jurong.
rahim keeps on laughing over something. :D [b , u noe i noe la kan.]
toured jurong point and yes , super duper crowded. nothing to do , we went lib.
rahim chose a book on steps for cooking -.- [mentang2 aku tk tau masak.]
then , we sent iqah home and we hung ard under my block. ;D
so , yeah. Merry Christmas to those ppl who are celebrating it. haha !

2008-12-22T13:34:00.003+08:00

ah yes. got bck from malaysia at 1.30 am ytd. cool huh ? -___- oh oh ! i cant believe i watched the match between vietnam and spore ytd o.O singapore kalah ! apedah.

dad said ,"Alamak ! Si precious nie. Lari lmbt sgt ! Tgk tu. Bontot dea berat !" Well , yes. my dad was the commenter for tht day -______________-

received a bad news from rahim ytd. he revealed tht he may be moving house. :( which means tht , he might change school too XC what luck ! & yes , i almost broke into tears and i almost planned to ignore him. but then , come to think of it , its not his fault DX k , grt. D':

2008-12-19T20:48:00.002+08:00

its now then i realised tht i cant afford to lose you. i've observed the sec 1 girls' for nxt yr. && im sure there will be some whu will fall in love wif you. promise me tht you'll stay by me always. iloveyou.

2008-12-16T22:07:00.002+08:00

the guy , whom i love all dis while.
he's the one whu gave me encouragement.
the one whu mke me smile.
every single msges he sent me , i nvr fail to save it and read it before i go to sleep.
he's my one and only.
&& i've fallen in love wif him since i met him.
he is , my boyfriend.

bby , thank you for giving the happiness i nid all dis while.
oh yes , u kept saying tht my forehead is nice. thank you for the "compliment".
everytime you keep saying tht gurl's name , trust me , i'll always get jealous.
all i can say is , thank you for being there for me when i needed someone to lean on.
thank you for giving me the love i've nvr dreamt of all dis while.

AbdulRahimBinRahmad , iLOVEyou.
happy 17 mths anniversary.

2008-12-10T19:27:00.002+08:00

whattheheck , tmrw hv cca -_- stooooopid.

2008-12-07T22:49:00.003+08:00

gosh. idk why people are suddenly confessing. confessing tht they liked me. i mean like , wth la. the worst part is having eur boyf's best friend confess tht they liked u. merepek jer bnyk. lemme count the number of guys. oh , wow ! five guys came by and asked for std. my ex msged me and said tht he want patch. gilak punya bdk. Anw , Fatin! i hv a lotttt to tell you abt Cik Haikel :D oh yes , im falling in love.

2008-12-05T11:19:00.002+08:00

oh yes. i had grt fun going out wif fatin , her bro , afiqah and natasha. it started of with me , fatin and his bro [raiyan] , getting wet. it was raining cats and dogs and the three of us were running like crazy ppl. we waited for ard 20 mins for afiqah and natasha to arrive. we were stuck at the lib and cant go out. haha. i met wif yusri & gang , the 1p2 guys , some of juying's ex-students. sume act mcm tk knl aku gytu. smack baru tau. we went to mcd bcuz fatin was hungry and natsha and afiqah headed to watch the movie. we were chatting while eating and fatin saw haikel came in. [melts] :DDD k , forget it. aft tht , we go toys 'r' us and frm thr , mula lah fatin punyer gila2. and they played this very irritating song thr. we went to kiddy palace and played wif the bears thr. went to arcade , saw ct darla and dian huns. ehh , both of them super sweeeet ! :D then met wif akif thr. whoosh ~ dh tinggi uh tu bdk. :D raiyan cried all the way from the arcade till interchange because he wanted something. haha. ok , bye.

2008-12-03T14:16:00.005+08:00

my days were spent by watching 'another cinderella story'. oh yeah , Matin. its too sad tht u cant watch the story since eur girlfriend starred in the movie. ;D basically , holidays are boring and i've borrowed these 3 books below from the lib and i've completed reading them. so , Fatin , tmrw we go out , we visit the library hor. ;D

; finally , bby will be bck on friday ! :DD im looking forward to it. XD [now , i finally can accept the challenges which comes in the way.] my 2009 resolution will be up on the next post.

2008-12-02T14:32:00.002+08:00

OKAY , FINE !
EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT , OKAY.
IM ALWAYS THE ONE WHO TURN THINGS TOPSY-TURVY.
all i ever wanted was a perfect life !
with wonderful FRIENDS and FAMILY around me.
that's all im asking for , but everything is ruined.
I ALWAYS MKE THINGS WORSE , RIGHT ?
okay , fine.
it certainly doesn't pay to be kind.
fuck.damn.chibai.nabei.

2008-11-30T21:06:00.002+08:00

i've realised something really important. although he did tht to my mum , everything happens for a reason and its normal for couples to fight. im just saying tht i hate him bcuz of wad happened. even though he did all tht , deep down inside , he's still my father & he sacrificed a lot for his children. wtv his children wanted , he will try his best to buy it for us because he do nt want to see us being sad. kak mira , i think we've gone too much. everybody's mkes mistakes & im sure dad wants a last chance to mend his ways. && right now , im glad to still have a father and i will always treasure him. i love you , dad. :')

2008-11-29T11:56:00.002+08:00

you came home and act as if its not eur fault. i hate you. & dont you ever blame me for that. ardini is too young to understand anything but , your other children are grown-ups and aft what you did ytd , eur children hate you. dont believe me? try me. i looked down on you. i hate the way you treat my mother , stupid. XC dont scold me and say tht i didnt show respect to you. RESPECT MY MOTHER AND MY SISTERS FIRST IF YOU WANT ME TO RESPECT YOU. remember this , i study hard , it is for my mum's sake. its not for you. if my bill shot up high , that is eur fucking problem.

2008-11-25T19:42:00.001+08:00

im so dissapointed. really dissapointed. in my whole life , my 13 yrs of living , i've nvr seen it happening. but , unexpectedly , it happened. my sisters and i nvr stopped crying. i really pity mum , for having to go thru dis. why must this happen? im still young. my sisters are still young to understand dis , but .. it still happened. cant i just turn bck time? my sisters and i have a bright future ahead and we nid our parents support and to be there for us at all times. but .. why is dis happening to us? i couldn't stop crying because i've nvr experienced dis before .. everything happened too fast and i was shocked that this is happening. i wasnt able to share dis problem wif anyone. i wanted to tell rahim all dis but .. he's too busy.

; haikel , rasidah , thanks for being my listening ear and for giving me support. i really appreciate it. haikel , even though i didnt noe u for tht long , but .. u understand me well .. rasidah , thank you for being such a grt fren. :')

=D

2008-11-23T10:41:00.002+08:00

oh hey. idk why but i suddenly feel lyk blogging. hurhur .. urm , yeah. i just got bck frm johor. it was "VERY MEMORABLE" bcuz dad keep shouting at me. yeay ! =___________= :'( shasha and family came over to my hse there. mum and dad planned to hv a barbeque. wth , its so nt very the fun. Zzzz .. when i want to eat , mum will be instructing me to go to the kitchen and tke sumthing. when i've brought the thing over , and i want to eat , she asked to mke drinks for grandpa. she asked me to search for the pot to mke the drinks and i cant find it anywhr ! what she said was ," Kau nie. Aper2 aku suruh carik , semua tkde." i was so effed up lorh ! when she search for the pot , the pot still nt thr ! -_______- at last i get to eat when i finished mking the drinks. =_+ i woke up ard 5.30 am bcuz dad wanted to send me to religious sch .. so , we sent grandma home ferst , and then he proceeded to send me. when i reached my religous sch , NO ONE WAS THERE except the sec 1 kids. memalukan siols. i called my dad , and he picked me up and sent me home. aft tht , he went bck to johor. when i reached outside my hse , the door and gate was locked. i knocked , pressed the bell but my grandma didn't open the door. it goes on for 10 minutes ! i was so effed up , then i called my mum . mum said tht maybe grandma was sleeping. (!!!) then all of a sudden the door opened. "Eh , ila dh balik . Nenek baru bgn tido. Cpt nah kau balik ?" yeah , i made tht irritating face and went inside the hse. another problem acted up. Puteri was chasing aft sherry and she overturned my mum's flower vase and it BROKE. i had to sweep it and mop it. ohh , i hate puteri . :D

2008-11-21T11:51:00.002+08:00

somehow , i just feel tht life isn't fair. my parents are suddenly being biased. mum , i noe i am a good for nothing , okay ! all i do everyday is sit in front of the computer for hours and hours. i dont know how to study for the upcoming religious psle. idk how to help you wif the housework. ok , fine . i can accept the fact if thts how u think i am. all this while , u just didnt realize tht i helped u wif the housework and every night , i will study for the exam. u said bad things abt me in front of dad! im embarassed , mum ! i sat in front of the computer because no one is there to talk to me or whatsoever. and u actually think im useless. ok ! at this age , i alr noe hw to hv boyf. so what !? im really effed up. no one is there to hear my problem. if i were to tell u abt it , eur juz gonna nagnagnag. wth eh , mum. i dont care lah. im always wrong and the one whu is always ryt is sister. :'

; rahim , i miss you. :( i've told u my problems and u told me to be patient and overall , she is my mother. u supported and encouraged me. thank you so much. :'')

bastard.

2008-11-19T15:28:00.002+08:00

seriously , im really pissed off. by my own COUSIN and her fren-SSS. they're trying to act mana nyer bsr jer. hang out wif sec 2 kids frm MY SCHOOL. seriously , i cnt tke it anymre. next yr , she will be schooling in pioneer sec just bcuz her boyfren is thr. i mean lyk , wtf? && trust me , if she were to get into trouble next yr in front of the whole sch , im the one whu will lose face. why is that? bcuz i am her cousin n ppl will recognize her. aku bknnya nk menyindir ke apr eh . klau kau terasa , tu kau nyer psl. aku tules nie sume pat blog psl aku dh tk leh tahan tgk kau jdi hanyut. pick the right frens and im sure u wont be badly influenced , cousin. im just saying all this because i care. idc if u hate me or what. i personally dun fucking care.

2008-11-18T21:30:00.002+08:00

couple 1.

couple 2 .

couple 3.

ohh , just now was uber fun. :D the couples went out for an outing to west coast. we culd hv reached thr EARLIER but hazwan pulled us bck. thr , the couple hugged each other. woahhhh .. hehs. but couple 3 didnt hold hands OR hug each other. -_____- aft we hung out thr , we headed to west mall to tke some aircon. haha. urm , yeah. we walk ard AND i was hungry all of a sudden. whoooshh~ the guys went to arcade and the girls sneaked out to eat at burger king. lets do a bit of a confession here. :p well , yeah. shikin and me are kind of embarassed eating in front of our boyfrens. bcuz , we feel lyk .. they will think tht we lyk to eat . sort of. urm , yeah. ah ok. the guys didnt noe tht we ate at burger king. i told rahim i bought something to DRINK. ok , its a lie. but , its still a fact. :D ok , we eventually got tired and we went home. urm , yeah. im tired to type mre. bye.

2008-11-16T11:18:00.004+08:00

to start it off , i just wanna say , FRIENDSTER SUCKS . :) i used to hv 933 frens .. now , im only left wif 18 frens . 18 , ppl ! 18 !! -_________- every friendster profile i go , it is always PRIVATE . hey , im effed up ! what happened ? i might as well delete it lah siols . so very frustrating . sue them then they noe ! :@ now , im only left with facebook and tagged . both are kind of boring , heh . sheesh ! talking abt tht mkes my blood boils . bye .

; happy 1 yr and 4 mths anniversary , rahim . iLOVEyou , bby . stay wif me forever , will you ? :)

2008-11-15T11:21:00.005+08:00

i didnt hv any mood to post anything ytd . ;D so , here i am , posting abt ytd . huhu .. touch rugby was so fun fun ^^ tiring but fun also lah . we hv to hop up the big stairs in the field , and do high knees up the small stairs . i was having difficulty doing it and i just walk up the stairs :D last set , want to waste my energy , i hop like a mad person . thenthen , i heard someone whistling us frm above . i look up at the block above but i cnt see anyone cuz i didnt use my specs . -____- soon aft , i receive a msg frm rahim ,"Pnat ke naik turun tangga ? hehe .." . hha , the real culprit whu whistled and disturbed us was HIM . :D aft training , i waited from rahim outside sch , wif syidah . sent syidah to the bus stp and we walked to the lib together . met wif amirah and we chatted like old times . XD omg ! , her niece so cute lah . thr was a painting at the wall and she pointed at it , looked at rahim and me and said , "Cow cow !" haha . i pitied rahim bcuz he was cold . so , we headed down to the park opp jurong point . ;D
; bby , ytd was so memorable . thank you for the precious moment u gave me . i wont forget the things tht u hv done ytd . i love you and will forever do .

2008-11-13T18:33:00.003+08:00

hello people . today is very mundane . idk y but tht is wad im feeling now or perhaps , the whole day . lets start frm the beginning , shall we ? :D i woke up today and the first thing i did was msg rahim . he replied ages aft tht bcuz he was sleeping . (: msg2 sidah , talked otp wif rasidah for like , hours ? then went to fetch my sis frm sch . hahs . rasidah story-telling abt leon . zomg ! leon was like , super-duper ultra uber sweet lah ! he even bought a pp8 card for rasidah ! if all the guys in the world were to be like hym , all the girls will be so !#$%^&* la . haha .. stopped msging rahim bcuz his pp8 almost went low . :D oh yeah , i bought katy perry's album for sha's bdae . hpe she lyk it(: i forgot to wrap the present . haha ! .. i seriously miss the west spring students . walaooo .. i miss my natyQa , rasidah , amirah , zaza , syidah , elyna , shikin , matin , hazwan , ajmal , aidil , kak eira , sha , rosyahirah and rahim . :(

2008-11-13T11:17:00.000+08:00

i currently miss him :( gonna wakewakewake him up now . :D oh , bye . XD

2008-11-10T13:32:00.002+08:00

yeay . camp finally OVER . before i elaborate mre on the camp , i wanna thank the people whu tagged me & sorry for the late reply . ;) okaaayy , here's abt camp . on saturday , i arrived at sch ard 7.50 and mum sent me thr . i almost cried when i saw my mum at the gate , waving to me but i succeeded in holding bck my tears . when we were asked to fall in , i felt giddy all of a sudden , idk why . as a result , i vomitted . -____- ma'am wanted to send me home but i insisted on staying . so , ok . arrived at west spring sec and the sec 2's welcomed us . hurhur . we were separated into grps and i was the only pioneer girl in my grp . wth , shahrul and syawal are in my grp . needless to say , i was being disturbed ALWAYS . lucky for them , i didnt tell my mummy . :) day 1 was not so bad but i hv to say tht day 2 is the worst . we were doing footdrill for 3 HOURS . diediedie . the sec 2's are always bossing us ard and i HATE THAT . especially those girls . haiyaaaaaaaa =_________= the saddest part of all is , sha n shikin hv to go home bcuz they had muscle cramps and it got worse . :(( trust me , i ALMOST cried bcuz sha and shikin were the best girls in the squad . haish , we had campfire at the end of day 2 & not forgetting , BUFFET . nyeahahaha ~ then , at nyt , rasidah cnt go to sleep . she keep saying 'LEON ! I WANT LEON !' im the victim :D: ehemm , leon appeared at our sleeping place ytd . he was thr , without wearing his shirt and walao ! he got six-pack. as usual , rasidah was screaming lyk a crazy person . ape2 jer lah eh . last day , which is today , we camwhored A LOT . mostly , it was hazwan's picture . as u can see , hazwan's face is forever pathetic in the pictures . but still , he's cute ! :D my hands are tired of typing . so , do enjoy seeing hazwan's face . ;]

2008-11-06T11:35:00.002+08:00

im bored . i post this post out of boredom . saturday , i'll be goin away for ncdcc camp and i wont be able to talk to him otp like how i used to every night before i go to sleep . how boring and lame can tht be ? i've been staying up late lately bcuz rahim hv been calling me ard 1-3 am .. last night , i talked to him otp at 1.27 am and my mum suddenly woke up and asked me whu im talking to . i just answered , 'a fren.' rahim overheard it and laughed . -___- chatted wif him for 30 minutes ONLY . we usually chatted for hours and hours but not dis tym round . hurhur .. i guess thr's nothing more for me to talk abt . so , bye /

2008-11-05T17:47:00.003+08:00

hello people. XD went out wif amirah , shikin and sidah earlier to gek poh . okay , we've bought the necessary items for the camp .. hmmz , when we hv nothing to do , we went to the arcade at the 2nd level . fuyyohh ! , hazwan and syawal were thr . hhax , bdk2 yg tkd keje nk buat katakan .. hurhur , pathetic . decided not to play , so we went to the toilet to camwhore . aftwards , we headed to mcd bcuz mum asked me to buy mcspicy . there , we saw minahS and matS . the minahS were looking and staring at us . -______- the matS , idk . haha . me n mirah ordered && , behind us were syarmimie's friends [boys] . so yeah , they disturbed me n mirah . they were pushing each other and i was so damn irritated . one of them kept on saying 'assalamualaikum' to me . my mum taught me not to talk to strangers , ppl ! :D aft buying , mirah asked me to stay for awhile bcuz the minahS were looking trouble with shikin . one of them rolled her eyes at shikin . lyk , wtf . =_____% i went to tke my sis fpr a few minutes aft i reached home . the minahS grp we saw at mcd was walking towards the same direction . one of them said ,"Eh , tu perempuan tadi kan ? Bila dgn kwn , bising . Bila sorang , senyap ." They expect me to talk to myself while walking alone or wad !? stupid bitch lar . -___=" aft i fetched my sis , they u-turned and one of them shouted from afar ,"Oh ! Amek adq dea rupa2nya !" && all of them laughed . a bitch will always be a bitch . if amirah was thr , i gurantee tht all of them will be kneeling down in front of us , pleading for forgiveness . eh , if eur a p6 girl , act like one ! dont act lyk eur older than us , okay ? fucker.

2008-11-04T20:29:00.002+08:00

my teeth so white ^^ haha . k , lamezsx . todae went for the class outing . its nt exactly a class outing bcuz mre than 50% of the class didn't come . i really thought this will be a really fun outing but turned out tht i was wrong . it was so not fun .. bcuz thr were no clowns mking jokes . thr's no aidil , ajmal , jasmine , shu hui , jacelyn etc .. oh , well . at least my frens had fun thr . (: reached sentosa ard 10.45 lyk tht . then we left at 12.30 . hmmz , decided to go je entertainment but it turned out tht the WHOLE shopping centre is closed . hahs !.. ate at the nearby coffeeshop and we walk2 ard jurong east . tired alr , we went to jurong point . thr , i saw my cuzenSSS . oh yeah . i saw iqah , kak shafiah , irah and abg hisyam at the ground level . then , when i want to head home wif matin , i saw cik yati , fiefie and shasha inside one of the accessories shop . hurhur~ they thought i went out wif my boyfie . but , i swear tht i didnt go out wif hym . hahs , up to them if they wanna believe or nt . heck care lah XD wad else shld i talk abt next ? oh ,well . nth . haha , shopping for ncdcc camp things tmrw wif rasidah . :D

ps: iwishyouwererightherebesideme.

2008-11-03T15:50:00.003+08:00

oh well . im officially BORED . nothing to do eh ~ ohh , ermm .. kak eira is currently hving probx wif her ex . && i really pity her A LOT . just imagine hving a boyfren whu admire a girl and wanting to leave u soon aft . i noe , its terrible . to me , it is . Zzzz .. while amirah , she has to move to yishun . YISHUN ! hey , im goinna miss her megaloads . -_____________- problems nvr fail to pop up everyday . && yeah , i fought wif rahim last night . hurhur , pathetic . i want him to follow me to sentosa and he made up a lot of reasons . 1) its too early . 2) he cant wake up early in the morning . 3) its too far . 4) he dun hv any money left . 5) he dun hv any other shirt to wear . =____=" 6) he's lazy to walk . hah , i think i shld buy him a wheelchair . +_____= oh well , tmrw im going to hv to go shopping spree at vivo . hahs ! .. aites , bye .

p.s : imizmybaby.

2008-10-31T22:14:00.001+08:00

everything suddenly feels so wrong at the moment . idk why im feeling dis way . rahim , i miss you . A LOT . :(

2008-10-30T14:12:00.002+08:00

rasidah ; zaza ; matin ; elyna ; rahim.bby ; amirah they mke my day & mke me feel so special . u guys helped me a lot in my problems . iloveyou guys A LOT . :(

all dis while , i've been wanting to express my feelings but throughout this yr , im nt able to do so . i've been wanting to know , WHY DOES PEOPLE STAB PEOPLE IN THE BACK ? seriously , idk if i shld noe the answer to tht or not . because , the truth sometimes hurts .
in frenster , i uploaded pictures of me and sidah together . but te photo comments i got was 'you sure ?' , 'ah ? i can't believe it .' , 'wth? okay.' so , yeah . rasidah is my best fren . is thr any rule saying tht i cant be frens wif her ? yeah , i noe tht most of u guys hate her so much bcuz of some reasons but all u guys can think abt is the negative side of her . just for once , cant u guys actually think of the positive side of her ? rasidah helped u guys in many ways . like : buying
spectacle hook for u . / waiting for u aft sch or during recess . yeah , thr are a lot mre things she did for us . but i wonder , do we ever appreciate her good deeds ? everyone makes mistakes && nobody's prefect , u see . cant we mke the world right just for this once ? , u noe , some of u are certainly being biased . for example , always sticking to one fren and always talk gd htings abt him/her . so , yeah .. thts abt it . klau siapa2 terasa , im sorry eh . im just voicing my opinion tht it is really unfair to people whu are being left out . i've learnt my mistakes and i've mend my ways .

2008-10-29T18:32:00.002+08:00

today ; class meeting . it was a CLASS meeting . but only 9 turned up . stoopid lah sial . might as well i nvr go sia . dumbass-.- everything was finally confirmed . okay , 1v6 peeps . these are the confirmed details for the class outing :-

4th november [tuesday] , meet at the interchange at 10 am . we'll be going to sentosa . matin and ajmal will supply the drinks . i will supply the food . okay , so thts all . be sure to turn up . :D

alright then , aft we discussed , we went to separate ways . cheyy ~ :x sidah , me n zaza went to pioneer mall bcuz i wanna buy my contact lens . huhu . then zaza hv to go home and sidah and me went to eat at mcd . thr , we saw firzad ! woah ohh . he's grown , well yeah . he's kinda bigger . hehs , no offence yaw . but he does kind of look a lil bit lyk chris brown . Laugh Out Loud ! XD aft we're done eating , we went bck to jurong point cuz we hv nothing to do . -.- we're lyk so pathetic . on the way thr , we saw shahirah wif (???) . oh yeah , she's so sombong . ok , then im only left wif $8.50 . rasidah eventually pleaded me to buy her a handphone keychain which cost $3.95 . wowow . shocked , yo . ok , well . i kind of pity her so i eventually gave in ! i lovee tht money so much ! .. but .. :( ok , den den , we saw suhaimi , yusri and syamil thr . suhaimi looked so different . yusri is still the same . haha , syamil is still as short :D suhaimi saed i lost weight and i looked thinner than last yr . he actually confessed tht i look fat last yr ! grrr .. nvm . yusri saed i looked different . oh wow . :D laughlaughlaugh then sidah n i go kiddy palace . hah , thr , we saw syahid . i didnt see him at first until he saed "Mana Rahim ?" fuyoohh , why must he ask me tht question ? heish . then when we hv nothing to do , we go homeeee . :D oh yeah , bye peepxsz .

2008-10-27T20:59:00.002+08:00

holidays ; so effing great . yea , im being sarcastic . ~ i do nothing at home except sitting and staring into the computer screen for hours and hours , eat , sleep , bath . sooner or later , i can rot . R-O-T . get it ? i miss boyfriend so badly . but , too bad , he's away at bukit batok . i'd rather him staying thr than staying at jurong bcoz here , he'll only spend his tym at the 'pondok' . so , what the heck , it'll be much better for him to go , ryt ? butbut , i miss him . i hv to lyk , wait for MONTHS . months , people ! until i can see him again . well , yeah . dis post is totally meaningless but im just posting to keep my blog awake . yeah , its been to sleep for a few days . ok , lamezxs . what shall i rant abt next ? nothing , i guess . tmrw ; going meeting to discuss abt the class outing . && gosh , i think my next handphone bill will be so effing high cuz i text && call too much . so , yeah . possibly , dad's going to change my line to prepaid . great , yeah ? once again , im being sarcastic ~ just so u noe . alright , im tired of typing .

the best of the best.

2008-10-25T15:37:00.003+08:00

oh yeay ! :D watched high school musical 3 ytd wif sha , shikin , sidah and rahim bby. (: woohoo , the show is a blast lah ! i ended up crying in between scenes . yeah , and rahim laughed at me . -.- okay , when i reached at the golden village place , i was walking with rahim and i didn't notice ma'am radin was thr until she smiled at me . heh , wif my innocent face , i just walk . :D then aft the show , sha went home while shikin meet khai at the lib . while rasidah , me n rahim "toured" jurong point . yea , kind of . when we hv nothing to do , we went to the library to see shikin . heh ! mr khai and shikin so sweeeet lorh ! :D then we decided not to disturb them , so , we went to sit at a corner . sitting at the corner only involve me n rahim . rasidah went spying on shikin and mr khai . yea , the picture above is when we hv nothing to do . so , the couples and rasidah went out from the library and sidah was whining and sighing all the way . "Korang eh . Aku tau lah aku tkde couple . Jealous siak aku . Sume pimpin tgn . Abeh tkde org nk pimpin tgn aku." yea , her usual sentence . couples holding hand , its not wrong . why must she make a big deal out of it ? =.=" then , sidah wants to go home . && aft much persuasion , she decided to follow us to the park . mr khai and shikin went dating one corner , me n rahim dated at one place while sidah emo at the slide . then , she scolded me bcuz she is jealoused seeing mr khai and shikin together . i mean , whatthehell ? yea , she went home bcuz her mum pestered her to do so . && rahim n me dated from 5.30 to 6.30 . heh ! , then i reached home ard 7 .

2008-10-22T15:54:00.003+08:00

school days is going to an end . yeah , it may be a gd news to some of u . it will totally be boring sitting and rotting at home . results will be out tmrw and i seriously dun wish to stayback in sec 1 or drop to sec 2 normal acad . parents put on high hopes on me . so , yeah , i hv to meet up to their standards . && finally , i've completed my love story . overall , i let sidah , shekyn , zaza and syidah read it . shekyn saed she wants to photocopy it bcuz its touching . roflmao~ anw , aft not talking to him for a period of tym , he started talking to me ytd . its like , shocking gitu . (: he spot-checked my bag & he actually READ the love story i wrote . (!!!) heh , embarassing to the maxsz , okay . well , yeah , he read it and he commented on it . it goes on and on .. okay , im actually reading this book titled 'not another bad date' and some of the contents cn be so censored & disgusting . i let rahim read it(; he said ,"U eh . suka je baca buku mcm gini . " -.- tht was so sarcastic , for goodness sake ! well , yeah . aft hanging out wif him , i wonder if i shld go on wif my plan which is to brk up wif him . (???)

2008-10-19T14:51:00.003+08:00

hello fellowS :D madrasah prelim exam was "so grt" . i thot it was oral ! then it turned out to be the prelim exams . i mean lyk , wtf lah ? i dun even noe . all dis while , i thot ustazah was blabbering on and on abt oral . -.- questions are like !@#$%^&* i havent seen the questions before lah [because i always skip religious class(;] only akhlak [behaviour] was easy . close one eye also can do . haha . tauhid ; fiqeh ; sirah ; no hope ! :( whattheheck lah . i dont even noe who Nabi Muhammad was married to . patheticccc . i look at fatin doing the paper . fuyyohh , dea buat mcm sng je siak . haha .

i was invited to rahim's open hse . i really wanted to go but thr is sumthing tht stopped me from going .

1) me n him are still on bad terms .

2) no one is free on tht day and i dun want to go thr alone .

3) if no one is accompanying me , thr will be no one entertaining me thr and i cant expect rahim to accompany and entertain me bcuz we're still on bad terms .

well , yeah . those are the possibilities . but hey ! its not my fault tht i didnt go . i dun hv any other choice , u see . rafiq started to msg me saying tht he's otw to rahim's hse and whether i want to join him to go thr . of cuz i want to but thinking back , its better for me not to go bcuz i'll be deeply hurt . thinking of him makes me cry . wad happens when i actually SEE him ? of course i will break down and cry + i will scream ! my heart hurts , thx to him :(

2008-10-17T19:20:00.002+08:00

eyy ! :D got my rank today , yaw ! LCP nabila . ok , corporal is much better . or perhaps , warrant officer ! ok , going to wait fr tht day to come , ekh . hee(: i dun wish to state wad happen ytd . only sha , shekyn , sidah , natyqa and rahim's lil sis noe . well , yeah ! :D alright . today will not be a looonngg post(: mayb next tym ekh . XD i hv nothing mre to update ! heeee . bye .

mixture.

2008-10-15T18:09:00.002+08:00

last 3 days was so !@#$%^&* yea , u noe wad i mean . p6 students cuming down to our was so troublesome . had to entertain them and i hv to do the first aid . hell , yeah . ytd , thr were so many injuries from pioneer primary . well , nabila saves the day ! :D i got all fluttered up , actually . heee ! khai dgn si [idk wads his name] slalu lah kcau aku . ah , bgs ! amalkan slalu yer , bdk2 kental(: today , juying primary came down . nyeahaha ! nabila popular oiie ! wherever i go , thr will b people saying 'kak nabila !' . gerekk kan ? woohoo ! :D aft today's open hse , got touch rugby . just imagine how tired i am !? 5 mintues brk is lyk 1 hr brk . hahah .. thx to dee ehh . she poured water to every one of us . too bad , im her victim . the wayer she poured on me was lyk so damn effing cold lah . && tht tym , im going down wif cough and flu . -.- k , nvm . we lepak2 at the hall aft training finish . nadeea , elza , nadila & dee camwhored . amira & me were bz sms-ing our boyfrens . zaza and syidah relak one corner . aisyah lie down on the stage . what did zainul do ? && yeah , he goes ard disturbing ppl . (: aidil , matin n ajmal were goofing ard at the hall . mcm gerek gitu . haha .. rahim told me he dyed his hair alr . well , yeah . if i can see the colour tml , i will strangle him lah . i cried so many tyms for the last few days . thx to tht bastard [no offence] . rahim saed he missed me && wanted to meet me . well , im lazy to meet him and i juz went hm(: sakit hati je tgk dea . tpi kdg2 best jgk . nyeahaha ! schooling tmrw && im so lazy to get up fr sch . mama , ponteng kan ? im sure my mum will sae 'tk blh !' . itulah mak aku . ;D ncdcc will resume on friday . wth lah kan , rahim n i planned to go dating on tht day . haha .. rahim and i decided to date tmrw . jgn kcau eh , pls . haha ! :DD aites , bye .

only god knows how im feeling ryt now , bby . go ahead and do wad u want . i dun feel lyk bothering anymre . i will always be here for u && happy 15 mths anniversary , darling .

eur promises.

2008-10-13T20:20:00.003+08:00

open hse today at sch was basically superb . helped out at the touch rugby section . i was bullied by khairul and roy , practically . roy wasn't so much of bullying me . but , yeah , it was mre likely tht i bullied hym(: no offence eh , roy . xingnan pri and boon lay garden pri came down today . kecoh lah siakk ! :D boon lay garden pri has so many slenges and i can only spot 1 mat handsome(: xingnan pri , well , needless to sae , thr were a lot of minahs&mats thr . sakit mata memandang . =D eventually , i cried the whole night ytd . bcuz of my 'great' boyfie . it was sad to hear the things he told me / confessed to me .

i let u hang ard wif those kids whu smokes , dyes hair , sniffs glue and do things which are stupid . i dun expect u to follow their style , bby . well , yeah . i thot tht all dis while , u've changed to eur old self . i was really delighted and i promised not to shed my tears for u anymre . but , instead , u lied to me . u told me the biggest lie . in my whole lyf , no one hv ever lied dis such of big thing from me before . congratulations , bcuz eur the first to do tht . u called me last nite , saying u were sorry n u promised nt to do it again . && tht u stopped doing those things alr . u called me many tyms but in the end , all those calls were rejected . u sent me 11 msgs , saying u were sorry . do u think sorry can make up for all this ? people thinks tht im lucky to hv such a grt boyfren . in front of them , all i could say was 'yea . im lucky.' but the only thing they do nt noe is tht , im crying inside my heart . when i lastly answered eur call last nite , u heard me crying and begged me to stop crying . but , what else culd i do ? i cried even mre . why in the world did i cry ? in the end , u eurself cried too . go ahead wif eur lyf . i feel lyk giving up on u now .

hari raya.

2008-10-11T13:22:00.002+08:00

ytd went jln2 raya wif beloved ones ! sidah and shikin fetched me from my hse first . then we go gek poh n fetch elyna . then sidah and elyna fetched shud near the gek poh bus stop while me n shekyn fetch rahim at the pioneer bus stop . meet up at the interchange , waited 10 mins for lailatul and she nvr arrive . && so , we leave first . go my hse , watch crite hantu smpi tknk balik . haha . then go akmal's hse . otw , the couples [rahim&nabila , akmal&elyna] hold hands . ^^ elyna &akmal go home first cuz elyna hv to reach hm by 6 . rabak kan ? then we go rasidah's hse . i was forced to eat , mind you . rahim want to eat , i dun let . cuz i noe tht i wont finish tht plate of mine . while playing his psp , i fed him . LoL ..then we go rafiq's hse . the father was so coolio ! ok , dotdot .. he saed me n rahim are the pengantin . wth ? i run away first !! k , evil . :D aft tht , go mr hafiz's hse . ah yelah , sesat skejap . i was off mode at tht moment . rahim have to hold my hand bcuz i lost balance sumtyms . nyeahaha . found the blk at last . in the lift , rahim kissed my forehead while waiting the girls to enter the lift . reached mr hafiz's hse at ard 9 plus . hell yeah , waited for the 99 bus is lyk waiting for earthquake to come . -.- in the end , the bus arrive and off we go ! rahim sent me home and i reached home at abt 10.15 . yea , gerek [sarcastic] . bye .

shoot u !

2008-10-09T20:28:00.002+08:00

hello peepzsx ! :D i guess its the zaman to rebond hair lah hor . a lot of people hv been rebonding their hair . wahh , mak bpk bayarkan lah perh . hahah .. niwaes , maths and literature juz now was kabuush ! XD maths was so damn effing easy && literature , ohh well . better not say it lah eh . totally sucks in those poems . while doing it , i will be like , omggg ! why didn't i revise on this !? help me , boyfren . && the only reason tht i called my boyfren is tht he totally ace in those poems thingy . juz hv to find rhyming words && bla3 .. k , wtv . aft sch , Shikin , Sha , Elyna , Natyqa , Sidah , Rahim and Akmal went to lepak2 . cheyy . k , thts officially fake . we were actually waiting for Sha for her meeting to finish . [nasib baek aku bersabar] accompanied rahim here and thr until it rained cats and dogs . haha ! Shikin and me watched the This is Me video on her phone n i swear i can melt ! joe jonas is like so totally hot ! whu can deny it , bby ? hahaha . i was like screaming and squealing , saying his so hot and all tht . ok , im sotzxs . go gek poh , saw the muay gang thr . it consist of hazwan , solihin , isaiah , syafiq and syawal . i was so soaking wet and thr eventually came . bgs lah kan . tunggu bdk2 perempuan keringkan diri dlm toilet tu , mcm tunggu hari kiamat dtg lah siot . while waiting for those kids , me n rahim went to the photo shop to collect my photo . when we went bck , they STILL haven't finish their business . haha . went kfc , sit2 thr wif rahim and when i stood up for a while , sidah took my place . grt lah kan . thr were 4 seats . akmal and elyna were sitting together side by side and rasidah and rahim sat together side by side opposite each other . double date kepe ?! saw them together , my blood boiling alr lahh . geramm lah oiie ! k , stop . bye . (:

2008-10-08T19:09:00.002+08:00

science was da-bomb ! seriously , i dun understand a thing ! so , for science , i wont do well fr it . so sadly . home econs was easyyy ....! except for the vitamins and the functions part , though . aft sch , hung out wif my best babes and darling boyfren(: boyfren irritated me A LOT . taking my phone , walking here and thr and sum other usual stuffs . && yeah , i hv to drag hym lyk a crazy girl lyk tht . k , well well . got my phone in the end . aft he left , i totally miss hym . huahua .. cinta lah namanya . LoL . shud , sidah , sha , shikin hung out at my hse to revise for tmrw . well , yeah . rasidah is always wif the compie and keep saying 'aku nak chat ngn dinie!' yea , thts all . k , bye . bsk literature and maths paper 2 . mamposs !

:D

2008-10-07T20:00:00.003+08:00

today was practically superbb ! :D hung out wif my best frens aft sch . [best fren doesn't include THEM] aniwaes , thr was practically mre people cuming in the kfc and we were making a hell lot of noise thr . planned to go home but it rained so heavily . speaking of heavily , it reminds me of rasidah's broken grammar . haha ! wad happen ytd was , we were given a free cheese fries from dis mat handsome working thr . then he ask whether we want mre . then sidah sae want . sha sae ," Oiie . kau tkde kemaluan perh ! ?[Oiie . u dun have private part or wad ?]" then rasidah sae ,"Ah . Aku tkde kemaluan .[Ah . I dun have private part.]" i almost fell to the floor , mind you ! hahaa .. perhaps now , i hv my own bunch of cool frens who were thr for me evry second UNLIKE some people . sha , sidah , shekyn , shud , thx guys(: u guys practically rock ! :DD

cant wait for friday . nyeahaha ! its the last dae of exam + goin jalan raya wif loved ones. :D thr are A LOT of people following . now , trust me . i really can recall . haha . rahim , rasidah , dinie , rafiq , nur rahim , akmal , elyna , sha[mayb?] , shud , shekyn[mayb?] , matin , aidil , ajmal[mayb?] , lailatul . && yeah . practically , thr are some names which i left out . -.- stmstmstm . tmrw ; science & home econs . studied my science halfway && i havent open my home econs book to revise . grt , ryt ? i noe . bye .

yes no.

2008-10-03T16:50:00.002+08:00

hari raya was so bestbest ^^ got a lot of $$ka-ching$$ ! (: $160 is still not enuf cuz i hv to give away the PRECIOUS $100 to my mum .. kae , wtv . going to jln2 carik $$ka-ching$$ again . planning to do tht tmrw . && , immediately aft art exam , me n my fren going to jln2 raya . gerekk ke pe ? haha .. a lot of people are following . its a lot , to me . haha . rahim , sidah , elyna , akmal , sha , dinie , lailatul , rafiq && ... thr's sum more people but i forgot . stm lah perh . haha .. im seriously having big war with zaza . idk how dis thing happened && why i hated her suddenly . but i kinda miss her now . gosh ! , did i juz sae tht ? nyeaha ~

to zaza:-

its not tht i hate u and i dun want to hang out wif u . but , things are really changing now . abt eur relationship thing . u left dinie juz for suhaimi ? im sure u noe tht suhaimi is juz flirting ard wif u . in fact , he's flirting ard wif every girl . im trying to save u from hym . but if u juz wont co-operate , i cant do anything anymre . im still furious wif u over tht . dinie actually has treated u in a gd way . wad mre can a girl ask for ? being wif dinie is lyk being in heaven , u noe . he loved u so much yet u did dis to hym . ask eurself , can suhaimi ever make u happy ? guys are known only for their swit talks , zaza . if u happen to read dis , i hope u can understand wad im goin thru . u said u wanna change and it takes tym . i noe && i understand . i've alr waited for a long period of tym . but it looks lyk more people hate u for whu u are now . i miz the zaza i once knew .

to syidah:-

i noe u dun wanna be biased . but u are being biased ryt now . u entertained zaza too much tht u neglected me n elyna . it seems lyk we hv our own grp of frens now . u have eur 1v6 gang and i have my 1s4 & 1v7 gang . when can this thing ever end ? its neverending , u noe . stop being biased , is all i can sae .

2008-09-30T19:55:00.002+08:00

happy hari raya happy hari raya happy hari raya. i've received A LOT of hari raya msges && wishes . cool huh ? all of them ask for my forgiveness(: k , stop it . Zzzz.. hari raya is juz tmrw n i seriously dun hv the mood to hooray2 . exams are juz on friday . friday , people ! grr !.. hw to hv fun sia lyk dis ? dumbassfool. for last few days , i cant fast due to girls thing . nyeahaha . meeting up wif shasha && iqah tmrw . tht will be super duper coolio XD the boyfren came to sch juz now . he saw me in the morning and he ignored me and walked off wif his sister . if u actually look at how they are being together , u will think tht he is walking wif his new gf . whattheheck. i've tried waiting for hym juz nw aft i am released from sch but rasyidah wants to rush n i hv to leave immediately . i seriously hv no more stories to tell . so , to all muslim people , happy hari raya(:

rahim gylerh .

2008-09-26T20:25:00.003+08:00

msg-ing rahim makes my blood boils. lyk, seriously tau. if u guys actually read the msges he sent me, u guys will understand the pain im goin thru . cheyy-baa ! haha ..

rahim: U tadi i tengok Hazwan nye profile dlm FR, i npk ade satu bdk ni name nabila mengumpat psl i. i tahu lah i dh tk sweet.

me: Hehe .. Mrh eh ?

rahim: Tk. Kecewa.

me: Sori ah . I tk expect u gi baca . but , its the fact kan ? Mmg btol perh u tk swit . Hmm , sori ..

rahim: Ah yelah .

[goes on for a while]

me: wad mkes u change ?

rahim: ntah .

me: Hw can u not noe ? Dis drastic change is happening to eur lyf n i dun feel the rahim i used to noe anymre ! :(

rahim: ntah .

me: answer me . yes/no .

rahim: yes/no .

[goes on for a lonnnng tym.]

see how irritating he is ? grrrr ! .. trying to control my anger but i cried in the end . why must i have such a lousy boyfie ?

make me .

2008-09-22T20:38:00.003+08:00

baby , what more can i say ? i hope u could just change in a way . :(

all for u.

2008-09-19T20:14:00.003+08:00

I can honestly say

You've been on my mind

Since I woke up today, up today

I look at your photograph all the time

These memories come back to life

And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed

I still feel it on my lips

The time that you danced with me

With no music playing

I remember those simple things

I remember 'till I cry

But the one thing I wish I'd forget

A memory I want to forget

Is goodbye

I woke up this morning

And played our song

And through my tears

I sang along

I picked up the phone and then

Put it down

'cause I know I'm wasting my time

And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed

I still feel it on my lips

The time that you danced with me

With no music playing

I remember those simple things

I remember 'till I cry

But the one thing I wish I'd forget

A memory I want to forget

Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up

With your ring tone

I hesitate but answer it anyway
You sound so alone

And I'm surprised to hear you say

You remember when we kissed

You still feel it on your lips

The time that you danced with me

With no music playing

You remember those simple things

We talked 'till we cried

You said that your biggest regret

The one that you wish I'd forget

Is saying goodbye

p.s : boy , wherever u are & who u ll b , i wont ever forget u . :(

how ?

2008-09-17T20:15:00.002+08:00

160908. it was my 14-mths anniversary wif hym ytd . i dun even think he ever remembered it was our 14-mths until i sent a msg to hym n wished hym . i hv even planned to ask fr brk on tht day itself . starts on 160707 n ends on 160908 . but , i failed to do so bcuz i loved him too deeply . hv i made the wrong turn or wad ? i wanted to end it but , ... 16 mre days to exams n wth , im still thinking of this relationship shit . why cant i juz tke hym out of my mind for a sec ? i've always wondered tht .. i wanted my sufferings to end now . but the real question is , how ? how , why , what , whr , whu , which ? i cant believe i cant mke a decision at dis point of tym .

atiqah ! my new bestie !

2008-09-13T13:07:00.003+08:00

actually , i decided to blog ytd . but due to my laziness , it was postponed to todae . hahah .. well , ytd was a grt day bcuz it was the day my enemy n me got together . haha ! (berdamai lah gitu.) remember the past post abt the bitch thingy ? tht was the girl(: she's my best fren now . haha ! got her number from zaza n i asked her to do me a favour . i cant tell wad i saed , though . haha . bcuz its between her && me . its considering rahim uh . okay , im nt going to elaborate more ! haha .. ytd , rahim talked to me during recess . he was bck to his usual self . i didnt talk to him tht much eyhk . cuz i was so damn effing bored . he actually slash his hand using a blazer (???) . the most stupid thing to do . when he got home , he saed he will slash mre for me at nite . i didnt ask him to do tht stupid thing . wtv i saed , he wont listen . so , i juz ignore lorhhh . patah hati lah ... kk , den .. i was in the midst of msg-ing atiqah and he msged me saying tht he slash his hand alr . plus , he saed tht his blood turned black n he didnt wash it off . i told him off and he accused me of nt being caring to him . the truth was , i do care for him . its he whu dun want to listen to me . now , whose fault is it ? atiqah and i sort it off tht guys cant be trusted .. they are clever of doing sweet talks . i hv to agree on tht part . wtv it is , i think thr will be no mre NR sooner or later . bye .

pathetic lah kan .

2008-09-09T20:09:00.002+08:00

sch is sooooo cool today ! :D (minus the private thing and all) . i actually made aleks cried and scared of me XD ! coolness lah kan . . during P.E , tht idiot aleks said to check hwee sumthing and suddenly i heard my name being said in his conversation . he saed tht check hwee squeeze my 'cock' . bdh siooool . then check hwee and zheng han called my boy all the way until recess . aft recess , evrything stopped bcuz i threatened them tht i'll complain to mr jana abt it . lolol ! i actually wrote a letter to mr jana but i didnt really plan to send it ehh . then i let zaza read and asked her to somehow show it to aleks . :D aleks got scared siol ! nyahahaha ;x he started begging me like hell . "Nabila . please , nabila , please . dun tell mr jana ." He told zaza if this happens , he will be grounded . :D i saed , whu cares ? then check hwee saw the letter and acted cool . when i wrote at the front page 'To:-Mr Jana" , he became scared alr . haha . he saed tht he can lend me any books tht i want . ahhha !! i pity aleks so i tore the letter up . i put it to one side and check hwee immediately took it and threw it away . haha . && anw , during recess , the 4 babes did a conference . we told each other wad things we were not happy abt each other . evrything is settled and its grttt !

aft sch , went to lib wif rahim , dinie , syidah and zaza . sit in the lib , i took rahim's hp and scroll thru the msg-es . i saw tht bitch name thr . i read the msg and her msg-es were all acting cute seyhhhh ! stoooopid . i vent my anger on rahim and he emo 1 corner . lolol . then go popular , buy my things and i was scared to apologise for being unreasonable . i almost cried lah siols . i gathered my courage and actually apologise . evrything was settled . otw home , zaza and syidah left me alone wif dinie and rahim . so , u guys can actually guess what happened . -.-" rahim put 50 cent inside my shirt and it went inside my bra . -.-" then evytime i walk , they will make me trip and fall . -.-" when i ask them to stop , they make irritating noises tht i eventually laughed at . they went to the bus stop and went home . sadly , no kisses , no hugs and no holding hands as it is fasting month . haha ! ;DD

selfish frens .

2008-09-08T17:12:00.002+08:00

wad are frens for ? frens tell each other their secrets . frens dun bail on each other . frens help frens in times of nid . frens are thr if u want a shoulder to cry on . frens ll b thr fr u . if frens are the kind whu nvr share their secrets and problems , those are nt wad we call frens . we've been thru gd and oso bad times . we used to b thr fr each other . evryone wants a gd fren . my pri sch frens noe me bez . they were thr for me evrytime . i hate my current 'best frens' . wad kins of frens are they ? selfish n self-centered freaks , they are . tht is why starting from today , i vow to hv only 3 bestest frens . elyna , amirah , poonam , thankiew for being thr fr me , babes . zaza and syidah , go on wif yr secrets . go on wif yr 'bff' thing . go on leaving me and elyna out . we really dun care . we dun gain anything and we dun lose anything . if this is wad u call frens , then fine . u play hard , i play hard . u show me yr attitude , i heck care . BOTH OF U ARE THR FOR EACH OTHER . if one day u guys get bored of each other , dun cum running to me n elyna . cuz we will juz ask u to kneel down on us and apologise for wad u did .

sherry . puteri . library .

2008-09-04T20:16:00.003+08:00

supxz . a grt way to start my post . cheyy~ lolol . i've not blogged for a few a days alr . maybe i was too bz or im too lazy , perhaps ? k , wtv . todae went to the library wif khan , akmal , matin , aidil , syafiq n zaza to complete our homework . science worksheet ; so complicated . maths worksheet ; so difficult . literature worksheet ; i dun hv the book . grt kan ? Zzzz . we had so much laughter at the library today . thx to the 3 musketeers lah ehh(: - khan , aidil , matin . what happened was , i completed my homework n i hv nothing to do . && so , i took khan's phone and scroll thru the music . i wanted to send this song from nana && achik eyhs . then the fat and black librarian came and stared at our grp . when she came , khan made the 'dup dup' sound which is to represent fat people passing by . lolol . then when the fat librarian want to leave , khan made tht 'dup dup' sound again and the fatty turned and looked at khan . she gave khan a warning and said tht she hv been looking at khan . she saw evrything tht khan did when a fat person walked pass . idiot siols . keep yr mouth shut uh . -.- k , den we rounding jp . lolol .

pictures and video below are abt my playful cat . as u can see , aft i finish praying , tht sherry will always do tht . irritating kan ? the video is when puteri and sherry fight . nyahaha ! haha . bye .

camp . teachers' day .

2008-08-31T18:32:00.002+08:00

i miss blogging . haha . i thought of blogging when i reach home from camp ytd . but the internet went sotgiler.com . so , sadly , i cant blog . lolol . lets start from scratch , yeah ?

29 august , friday .

it was teachers day and we were not released early . whatthefuck siols . but , nvm . we celebrated teachers' day by watching a video of appreciation to the teachers . i felt like crying . like seriously . rahim once said tht he will be going bck to blangah rise and not going bck to juying . i was shocked when he said he wants to follow me go bck to juying . :DDD then after sch , i waited for him outside his classroom and we went bck to juying together . when we reach , i cant see any one of my ex classmates . cuz i wasn't wearing my specs at tht time . i was like waiting at the bus stop feeling stupid and rahim was like saying tht my frens were calling me . what frens ? haha . i asked him who , he say he didn't noe her name . grt kan ? so , he lead the way and syafiq , shahiran , khuzaimy was over thr . i felt so paiseyh alr ! i was talking to rahim and shahiran keep staring . i mean , im like so damn effing scared . shahirah saed im ignorant and arrogant . whattheheck ? haha . && so , i dragged rahim under the block . he talked and played wif linus and syahid . i was searching for amirah and she was nowhere to be seen ! =.= rahim asked me to follow him inside . i follow lorh . when i followed , i saw syarah dear thr . rahim went up to meet his ex-teacher , mdm chua . lolol . i waited for him at the stairs . sadly , i didnt get to meet szailina dear and sajidah darling . i was hoping to meet them , but nvm . i went outside sch and i saw amirah thr ! oh gosh . i ran to her and hugged her . it feels so gd to hv my teddy bear thr . :DDD amirah wanted to go bck inside but tht stupid mr peng dun let . he is always finding fault . since laz yr lah eh . babi punyer cikgu . rahim and i practically went home as i nid to get ready for camp . rahim and i took the double deckr bus and we sat at the laz seat .

camp .

i was appointed to be the ic for sec 1 . stupid ryte ? then rasidah was angry at me bcuz i was appointed to be the ic . i mean , i didnt ASK to be the ic . sir rizal gave the role to me . wad can i do kan ? =.= forget it . during barbeque , they exchanged ghost stories and tht stupid solihin crept behind me and startled me . i feel like smacking his face . i cried bcuz i was scared . then rasidah saed she saw a figure in the room . i was seriously scared and i didnt sleep until 2 am . i took rahim's picture in my wallet and keep staring at it . i seriously miss him . i fell asleep wif ashikin in the room . the rest was out . rasidah was flirting wif shahdan && my eyes hurt juz looking at it . (mentang2 aku tkde rahim kat situ !) anw , i feel like running to rahim's hse bcuz i was seriously scared . but , nvm . woke up and we were given milo and biscuits to eat . we packed our things , cleared our bunk and we fall in at the foyer . i was asked to give the command siol ! idk how to shout as loud as the ma'am and sirs . i juz shouted lah ehh . k , bye .

crampy .

2008-08-27T19:55:00.002+08:00

as usual , i hv my own story today . haha ! during recess , syidah and me and zaza got a shocking from rahim . well , i knew abt it first lah kan . what happen was , rahim whispered to my ear tht dinie let out syidah's secret to jaz . i mean , what the hell ? why cant he juz keep his mouth shut lah kan ? a secret is meant to be a secret , okay . darah up uh . haha . syidah cried and eventually got angry wif zaza and started to ignore me . LoLism . rahim told me tht he's goin to rugby . like finally he's going !! haha . watched him train in between touch rugby break . deep inside of me , i knew my boyfren is the bez and he is doing the best he can do(: touch rugby training ended at 5 bcuz of the drizzle . we shared some jokes . dee lah nie ! hahaha . den rahim and matin came to the canteen , drenched . then rahim hugged me wif his WET SHIRT . he laugh3 like one crazy man . haha . he didnt send me home todae =( k , nvm . he sent me until the bus stop in front of the sch . gave him his valuables and kissed him gdbye . matin , syidah and zaza walked together wif me . i had stomach cramps all the way , man ! thanx to matin lah ehh . haha . he followed rasyidah's style by saying like ' no hope ah . no hope .' and 'omg ! is it true ?' wif his pondan-ness voice . haha ! cool XD he put a sweet on zaza's bag and zaza didn't even notice it . haha ! i hv to sit at the pavement and laugh my heart out . gosh . haha !

library .

2008-08-26T20:16:00.002+08:00

im dissapointed in myself for getting low marks for ca2 . i did really bad and i can say tht my sa1 are much much better . i got 35/100 for science , 68/100 for maths , 58/100 for lit , 67.5/100 for english . all this while , i always got an A1 for all those subjects . pathetic , isn't it ? i was too cramped up and stressed out when i was assigned all the assignments . seriously , i shld work sum sense into it . i was too lazy to revise , unlike laz time . how i wish i can turn bck the time so tht i can work hard for all test given ! omfg . i really hate this .

went to library tiday wif dearest rahim , dinie , zaza , syidah , aidil , matin , ajmal & khan . we went thr to revise our work and to let zaza complete her 'dare' which is to hug dinie and hold his hand . cool huh ? haha . we were like sitting one row at the lib tau . bcuz the place was too cramped up . at the far left was khan followed by me , rahim , dinie , zaza , syidah , matin , ajmal and aidil . hoho ! it was like super duper cool . after completing my maths hw , i chit-chatted wif rahim and dinie . me and rahim was like advising dinie wad to do since rahim is an expert in all this kind of thing . roflmao . aft tht , we went to mcd at jp . dinie , aidil , ajmal and rasyidah ate mc spicy burger . haha ! and rasyidah complained tht she was still hungry . pathetic kan ? oh lol . then we went off bck home . rahim and me was like holding hands aft we passed by the lib and syidah , zaza , dinie and matin was like following us . haha ! dinie and rahim sent me home . ok lah ehh . u guys surely noe what rahim and me will do . haha !! k , stop it . bye .

make up session .

2008-08-22T19:00:00.003+08:00

gosh , people . i look so smart in tht uniform . (cheyy baa . dh start perasaan lah pulak .) apologies for nt updating this blog . lets start from today , shall we people ? ahha XD

<u>21 august 2008 :D
yahoo , people ! got scolded by mr jana . isn't tht like the best thing on earth ? i love being scolded by tht history teacher of mine XD he scolded too many people until i dun care getting scolded at or nt . aniwaes , i got scolded bcuz i stopped him when he's talking . like , wth ? i have
to leave at 1.20 pm bcuz i have to go to tht cda place thingy for ncdcc . then he nag3 like one auntie regretting letting her children go out . forget abt tht and lets move on to the interesting part . the sec 1 ncdcc students went to the Civil Defence Academy :DDD fun to the maxzxzx ! i dont know how to describe the fun and what we did thr bcuz i dont know how to phrase it . haha . before i went to CDA , i had a fight with rahim during recess . he kept saying i keep admiring tht guy although i've said umpteen times tht i dun admire him anymore . i got effed up and eventually i stormed off . i cant be in the least bit bothered . after sch , i realised how much i miss talking to him . && tht is why i sent a letter to him saying tht i apologised . when i reached sch at ard 5 , he was still thr waiting for me . see how sweet he is ? haha . he didn't send my home though . cuz my mum is fetching me and he wants to accompany the security guard . lolol . okay , the end of yesterday XD

22 august 2008 :DDD
had ncdcc training just now . i got 14/20 for the test . haiyoo ! luckily i can answer the quesitons . rasidah got 4/20 for the first test and she was on the verge of crying then . when she took the 2nd test , she got 15/20 . 1 mark higher than me . walaooweii . haha ! i waited for rahim after ncdcc as he is having his rugby at tht time . rasidah was like accompanying me and she hv to go off at the last minute bcuz she wanted to meet abg khan . wtf seyhh . then i was like so damn fucking alone in the canteen with no one to talk to . i called rasidah and i shouted at her and asked her to cum bck to sch immediately . lolol . she ran all the way from gek poh bck to sch . cool huh ? cheyy ~ i bought burger and i was like so full . eat half of it and i was full . luckily shahdan was thr and he finished the burger for me . haha . rahim finally came and we talk2 for a while . shahdan asked rahim whether he could flirt wif me siols . then rahim say can . haha ! shit tht ok guys . rahim was like making fun of my picture at the ezlink card . i admitted tht i looked slenge + belo + geek + ugly bck then . grrrrr XC accompanied rasidah to the bus stop near gek poh . we sat under the block chat3 . before going thr , tht rasidah asked me to stand in between her and rahim bcuz she scared sum virus from rahim will go to her . wth seyhh . then i took rahim's hand and hold it . i showed her and say "whr got virus !" haha . rahim sent me home , held hands otw . kissed when we are nearing my house . the end . bye .

pathetic.

2008-08-20T21:21:00.003+08:00

why am i being disturbed on all the time siols ? okayyy , i admit i dun admire him anymre ! satisfied ? im saying it from the bottom of my heart . better get tht into yr head , bastards . thankiew for mking my mood upside down today , rahim && matin . to think i trusted matin in my secrets . im nt going to elaborate mre on what happen earlier . thinking abt it mkes my blood boils . pfft ! -.-

touch rugby training was supposed to be cancelled because zainul's grandfather was admitted to hospital . && so , we trained on our own . lina and halimah created trouble by showing their attitude to amira . like , wtf ? cant u like juz co-operate for once and not to bring what happen outside to inside ? wtv , tht was the worst part . farizan and nadila joined us for touch rugby . weehee ! new member , babe . ahha . seriously speaking , nadila is a fast learner . wtv we taught her , she can pick it up very fast . so , a standing ovation to my dearest nadila ! ahha ! k , lame . why am i so pathetic today ?

2 in 1 . (:

2008-08-19T16:20:00.007+08:00

practically , i was bored aft touch rugby ytd . the match stopped halfway as it started to rain heavily . i think i nid to improve on my touch rugby skills because its getting worse . nvm , i'll put in mre effort . :D when we were dismissed , i took matin's pictures . he was like super duper crazy then . haha . enjoy the pics(:

i saw these two adorable kid while i was on my way to fetch my lil sis . i've been thinking . in kindergarten days , we will be these close wif the ones we love . when we go to different schools , we tend to forget one another . its true tht , time cant erase a feeling this strong .

on 17/8/08 , i went to kak shiira's party as she invited me over and both rahim and her persuaded me to come . i went thr wif shikin and atiqa darling . reached thr ard 4.45 and the party is supposed to start at 5 . i planned to go hm at 6.30 . rahim's mother asked me to stay because she wants to use the camera . i was like , "Okay . But mke it fast cuz i want go hm at 6.30." aft 6.30 , she still didn't give me bck my camera and my mum was messaging me , asking me to go hm immediately as it was late alr . i felt like breaking down and cry siols . cuz , atiqa and shikin wanted to go home at 6.45 . i told my mum the whole story and she asked me to go my ex-neighbour hse which is juz next door if kak shiira's hse has too many people . i told rahim and he took my bag , fearing tht i will go hm . i let him tke my bag and asked him to call me if they use the camera alr . luckily cik lin invited me in wif open hands . haha . then atiqa and shikin called me , asking me whr i am . i was like , "Ingatkan korang dh alek kan ? Bila aku balek ngn rahim , korang tkde pon ." ahha . they cut the cake , we eat the cake and rahim and i took pics . oh lol . nothing to do lah kan .. i left thr ard 7.50 pm . my mum didn't scold me when i get hm . tht was luck . ahha . enjoy the pics(:

ohh baby , why didnt u come ??

2008-08-18T20:38:00.002+08:00

tht was the picture taken ytd during kak shiira's partyy . i'll upload th pics sumday . tmrw uh mayb . bcuz it takes sooooo longggg to upload . ahha ! kkay , rahim didn't cum to sch todae . :( i feel like crying and its so bored without him thr . no jokes . only lame jokes made by matin and gang . lolol . todayy , we had a match against the netball girls . kak afiqah and kak wyza is super duper cute lorh ! ahha . i was fed up during the game . some confusion thingy going on between my best fren and me . and yeah , dont blame me for this , best fren . why shld i care ? ._. abt the party thingy , i'll tell u guys mre in the next post aites . im tired and i nid to sleeeeep . oh lol . bye . (:

lazy coach . the party .

2008-08-16T14:14:00.004+08:00

early in the morning , hv to go to mendaki . wtf ? oh lol . tht grp of guys from my mendaki class are so disgusting for gdness sake . especially tht khairul/babi/bangkai . coolio . mendaki teacher nvr cum todae . thr is this teacher named ms fatehah or wtv it is called thr to relieve us . school are so crazy nowadays . im starting to hate my 2nd cca . idk why i feel tht way but im certain thts hw i feel ryte nw . or perhaps , i started to feel when we hv to run a total of 11 rounds (before & aft) ard sch . while tht coach of mine sit at the canteen , listening to my mp4 and shakes his leg . if he is so lazy wanting to coach us , why didnt he juz say so rather than making us run and making me wanna go to the toilet evry minute ? he even said tht it is for our own good . it is for our own good or his own good ? he can do wtv he wants during training while we hv to be his dog . if he ask us to run , we run . if he ask us to stretch , we stretch . if he asked us to do crunches , we do . whattheheck ! ifthis goes on , its better not to hv training rite ? its better if u juz tell the teacher in charge and say tht u cant b bothered teaching us . this sucks A LOT .

tmrw will be kak shiira's party . i was begging shasha to go wif me but her mum wont allow . k , nvm . i asked rasidah to go wif me , she sae cnt bcuz she hv this kenduri thingy going on . i asked meera , she saed she dun want bcuz she was nt invited . i asked amirah , she didnt reply . i asked poonam , her mum saed no-no . in the end , i asked shikin and she said yes . like , finally ! oh lol . if i were to go alone , im sure tht boyfren of mine wont accompany me bcuz he will be busy accompanying his cuzens . idc , really . i shouldnt hv moved hse . i swear i didnt want to bcuz rahim's cuzens hse is juz next door and the party will be held next to my ex-hse ! taikkebabai -.- mummy , lets move out to our old hse can ? oh lol .

elynaaaaa .

2008-08-15T20:16:00.003+08:00

elyna darling made me laugh so much todae until i had stomach cramps . haha . we talk craps all day long which made sense sometimes . LoL . aft mother tounge , we walked pass 1p2 class and they were making noise at tht period of time . den elyna want to turn bck to see whu kept shouting . when she turned , thr was this indian guy turning oso . he was super duper black ! totally black , okayy . when elyna turned , she was shocked to see someone wif only white teeth and white eyeballs . i cant stop laughing siolzxs . thx to tht elyna uhh . ahha . padahal padahal .

aft sch , stay-ed bck for awhile cuz i want to meet rahim before i head hm . he finally arrived wif tht rubiks cube in his hands . how the heck can he understand hw to do it while i cant understand ? ohh lol . he bought ice chocolate blended . and he wanted to give sum to me . first look at the drink , i thought it was sumkind of shit . LoLoL . elyna was laughing like a mad woman earlier . once tht is done , ard 1 pm , i headed hm while rahim went to meet cik ain . idk why he loved hanging out wif tht cik ain of his . okay , i guess i hv to go as i nid to revise sum of my maths sums tht i dun quite understand the formulas . (:

the intersection . ahha .

2008-08-14T19:05:00.002+08:00

the whole of today was spent wif rahim baby . 4 plus , we go to the void deck at block 744 . otw thr , we held hands and people looked at us in a strange way . (nvr seen secondary students hold hands or wad huh ?) rahim and i exchanged bags and his bag is so damn light . what did he even study today ? ahha . we sit2 for quite a long time under the block . and rahim actually got bored . so he slept on my lap . thr was this 2 boon lay sec girl walking pass . and giving us the shit face . den got this juying sec girl and boy sitting under the pondok . ahha . the girl was looking at me as if she was going to pounce on me anytime . then i msged cik ain . cuz rahim wanna meet her . i hv to accompany rahim all the way to the shop opposite pioneer sec again . i was like so damn tired . and so i went to fetch dini from sch . wait for a loooooonng time and rahim left . u noe , our daily routine is to kiss each other when we want to leave . i planned to kiss rahim on the cheek . and i hv no slightest idea tht he was going to kiss my cheek . he went forward and i went forward . then we actually kiss each other on the mouth . lolol . style kan ? ahha . aniwaes , tmrw is science test + english test + ncdcc test . how grt is tht , guys ? ok , bye . i wanna revise my work . gd gurl revise their work evryday . ahha ! wad crap . k , bye .

im sorry , dear .

2008-08-12T18:00:00.002+08:00

aidil and rasidah has been a great company juz now . we hung out at mcd in gek poh . rasidah and i bought nuggets while aidil bought mc spicy burger . i waited for rahim , rosyahirah and their cuzen to come . while waiting , i went to the photo shop to print my project work photo . ok , waited3 and rahim finally came . we talk3 at mcd and i totally forgot all abt szailina ! sorry , dear . in the end , she went hm . haish , next time , okay , darling ? ^ ^ ok , bck bck . rahim sat bside aidil and he asked me to sit bside him . so , i juz sit lorh . as usual , we hold hands lurh kan . rasidah v kpo . ahha . keep snapping pictures . lolol . anw , thx babe . in the end , i hv to fetch my lil sis from sch . den rahim was begging me to stay for awhile . i wish i could , dear . but i cant . okayy , den we kissed each other twice . thx to rasidah . he dared rahim and me to kiss each other . we did it . den she ask to kiss again bcuz she want to tke video . lolol . sungguhmerepek.com lah tu bdk . tht is mre or less the story abt todae . ahha .

i hate you !

2008-08-11T14:55:00.002+08:00

i juz wanna know the reason why . why in the hell do u admire tht stuck-up bitch ? why , rahim , why ! u jolly well know tht i hate tht bitch . yet u still admire her . u said it was 2 % . 2 % , people ! 100 % is much better . why dun u admire her 100 % ? why ! its better , ryte ? maybe it was yr wish to admire her fully 100 % . let the admire bcome like . && like bcome love . isnt tht wad u want ? to think tht i trusted u . to think i loved u whole-heartedly . to think i dumped my ex bcuz of u . i've done all tht . but what do i get ? i get lies from u . evrything u saed was all a lie ! u made me suffer . u made me miserable . u made me cry evryday . do u think its worth it ? rahim , im nt asking much from u . please . for heaven's sake , stop admiring tht bitch . bcuz , by admiring her , it ll only turn u into a big time BASTARD .

i hate her .

2008-08-10T21:56:00.003+08:00

i hate atiqah from 1p2 .

please take note :

SHE'S SUCH A BITCH .

PERHAPS , SHE IS A STUCK-UP BITCH.

GO TO HELL , SIALAN GIRL !

my boyfren , i miz you .

2008-08-10T10:39:00.002+08:00

the pic very cool ryte ? haha . wtv lahh . i hv been msg-ing zulhaffeq lately . zulhafeeq says i look prettier . (whattheheck?) thx , aniwae . he accompanied me wif his msgs at nite when i cant go to sleep . i told him my problems && we exchanged sweet msgs . haha ! we are like couples , u noe . but , tht wont happen . haha . practically , im so bored now . shasha , come my hse lah dear ! we gossip2 . amaciam ? hahaha . omg , im so pathetic -.- i miz my boyfren a lot . whattheheck , tmrw holidayy . cnt meet him . lolssss . wad shall i write abt next ? oh yahhh . my tagbox is really SLOW . oklah . wtv . i will post again today if thr is a nid to do so .

; boy , im sorry for all the wrong things i've done . i noe u hv sacrificed a lot for me . and i wanna thank you for tht . u hv alr gave me the love tht i wanted . a couple is nt a couple if thr are no fights . seriously , boy . im really sorry . if i happen to hurt u again , it wasnt of my own accords . i hv my own reasons for doing so . iloveyou , boy . :(

hsm.

2008-08-09T11:03:00.006+08:00

oh hello . im super duper happy abt ytd whr i go to the hsm ice tour thingy . hahaha . its so fun lah . front seats , okay . 3rd row . the skaters looked like the real characters from afar . when u go close-up , they are seriously not the real characters . in any ways , its fun watching it . seeing and hearing the lil kids singing along to the sngs . haha . i cant see quite clearly bcuz thr was dis woman seating in front of me whose head was so big && hairy . cheyyy ! haha . ok , let the videos and pictures do the talking .

thank you mum . for bringing us thr && for paying for the tickets . iloveyou.

puteri .

2008-08-08T11:06:00.004+08:00

ohh . mum bought a new cat which is only 1 mths' old . actually , its not 1 but 2 . 1 black and 1 white . the black cat is for my aunt . she want the cat . so , terpaksa bagi . when sherry saw the cat , sherry was licking her mouth while making the angry meow-ing noise . so , we concluded tht we cnt hv those 2 kittens bcuz sherry might do sumthing bad to both of them . ok , juz nw went boon lay interchange to fetch iqah for tuition . when i saw her , she was wearing lil ms tidy shirt while i wore lil ms shy shirt . haha ! mcm dh janji jek . && both of us wore skinny jeans and the bad part is tht , our height are the same -.- =.+ taik seyhh . ini telah menunjukkan bahawa nurulnabila bte aminnudin bin haji muhd sidek adalah pendek . terima kasih . cheyyyy ~ hahaha ! wad crap . seriously , i hv nothing to do now . i am super duper mega ultra bored . && why the heck am i using all those words ? k lah . stop ! bye . =)

ncdcc .

2008-08-07T20:13:00.002+08:00

lessons was so boringgggg . i slept during english class . we were hving compo test ytd && todae(: . i finished evrything ytd . so , i hv nothing to do juz nw . haha ! fuck tht check hwee lahhh . i was sleeping den he knock my table . i thought it was mr jana or mr subash siol . i look up , den check say to me , " Nabila . Hv stapler ? " whatthefuck siols ! sakit hatiii ! nga tido sedap2 abeh si babi tu kcau . -.- ok , back back . aft sch , go ncdcc . we do practical test . practical or theory ah ? i oso dunnoe . hhax . the questions are so damn easy . oh yah , congrats to sha for having the highest score . :DDDDD im so proud of u , girl . cheyyy~ (dh start emotional lah pulak.) k , cca finish , i go to the soccer table cuz i saw rahim n gapilan playing the soccer thingy thr . . waited for them for so damn fucking long && finally we went home . rahim && gapilan sent me home . gapilan sungguhperamah.com.sg . haha ! gapilan was like sighing while saying , " Nabila , whr's yr hse ? U go home yrself lahh . Rahim , go hm lahh . " Alamakkk . sakit jiwa lahhh . haha . den when i kissed rahim kan , si gapilan was like smiling . tersengih2 sorang . hahaha ! cute lurhh . okae , bye .

ohh baby !

2008-08-06T22:10:00.002+08:00

the above pic is my cute senior - myra kechiq ! LoLs . perhaps , she is the one i go to when i nid to let out my feelings . seriously , she gave me advice on relationship when rahim was brking up wif me tht day . im touched . cheyy ~ haha . okayyy , lets go on , ya'll .

juz nw touch rugby match was so (!!!!!) fun ! LoLism . seriously . i had fun . we won the match . 5-2 woohoooo ! okay lahh . i wont exagerrate .

rahim sent me hm todae . like , finally ! ahaha . we joke3 ard && ended up holding hands . haha . ehh , matin && elyna : aku pon pimpin tgn rahim lahh ! korg pikir korg dua je blh ? kat klas pon korg pimpin tgn . sakit mata memandang lahh . at least aku pimpin tgn rahim privately . this is step 1 . kau blm lagi cium each other abeh nk ckp bnyk uh ! hahahaha . kentalan lah korg .

ok , bye .

rugby match .

2008-08-05T20:41:00.002+08:00

school days sux dis days . idk why im feeling tht way . friendship problem ( normal lahh kan. ) . zaza cried during PE lesson in front of zainul . she was sitting in the middle && sorry to say but she's kind of an attention seeker tau . the way she laugh , the way she sit && the way she asked for pitiness from people . i mean , if u want mre attention , u could hv juz tell rite . thr is no nid for the act cute laugh lah seyhh . alamakkkk . during recess , she didnt hang out wif us . she hung out wif gui xin instead . mcm , whatthefuck siol . seriously speaking , wad we said during recess totally made sense . idk wad happen :(

aft sch , go rugby match . i thot many people will be going so a big bus was prepared in front of us . haha . then turned out only the touch rugby girls , 3 sec 3 guys && 2 indian girls . best siol . we hv the whole bus to ourselves . :DD then as usual , i sat bside rahim otw to the match . then we hold hands all the way . i was resting my head on his shoulder then he plucked out my rambut gatal . LoLism . gatal mcm nk rak siols . then he took my hp && read the drafts i wrote abt him on my hp . i hv written sumthing like , "Mayb u love her mre den u love me ." den he bend down && he was like 2 cm away from my face . he saed , " Mayb i love her mre den i love you ehh ." i ignored && i continued my rest . cheyy~! aniwaes , pioneer kalah lah . pathetic kan ? -.- sufyan did a grt job , though . he scored(: well well . i hate ms diana . we were cheering for pioneer tau . then she scold us . what the heck ? gilaaaa . then dee && halimah sae dun cheer for pioneer . cheer for the opponent . LoLs ! then roy keep asking whu we supporting . dgn smgt nyer , myra kata , " We nvr sae we suporting pioneer . We also nvr sae we supporting ACS barker ." cute lah myra . rugby match kalah , den go home . a mini van fetch us && i slept on the van . not knowing tht rahim was looking at me . what the hell lahh . haha . ok , reach hm at 7.30 ^^ bye .

thank you , baby .

2008-08-04T19:24:00.003+08:00

touch rugby was so funnnn :DD okay , i wont post abt the discussion earlier wif the girls . haha . RA (Rancangan Agama , beb.) . we chat3 for a looooonng time && then we played touch . wednesday match alr hor . gd luck lurh , guys . (: rahim went for rugby juz nw . i ll chop him up into pieces if he nvr cum . grrrr . he nvr send me hm . i guess he's tired . at the bus stop , when zaza got onto the bus , i acted to talk abt the stratch he had on his head . then i sae , " Eh eh . knp nie u ? kesian nyer ." i patted his head && i pulled him to me . then i kiss him . LoL ! okae . bye lah . tmrw going ACSI . woohoooo ! :DD

2008-08-03T13:12:00.003+08:00

the pic below is matin && elyna's hands ehh . nt me && rahim(:

okayyyyyyyy . juz nw was super duper fun ! juying primary bdk bnyk babe ! oh yeah , i saw my darling szailina . she was doing the basketball stunts and she loooooks sooooo cuuuute . :DD when i came , i searched for rahim like hell , okay . then i thot he nvr cum . suddenly i saw him skating in front of the crowd . omg . im proud of my boyfren . haha ! :DDD okay , the performance are exciting lah seyhs . they are very talented . i loveeeee the pioneer sec npcc . they march very well && they are very smoooth . (stunts,eh.) then i saw khuzaimy thr . . he was part of the ncdcc . got helmi && yusri also . then after the show finish , zaza , syidah && me was like searching for matin , elyna , ajmal && aidil tau . tk dpt jumpa ! then call matin , dea kat bawah . mcm siaaaaaaal . buat pnat org carik dea jek . den i go ard searching for rahim . he was nowhere to b seen ! luckily matin was there . he told me tht mayb rahim at the carpark , returning the roller blade . he turned out to b true lahh . rahim was sitting thr , having difficulty to tke off the roller blades && he was wearing two caps . whatheheck. then i distract him && i asked him to wait for me at the vending machine . aft tht , we go kfc . bcuz the two makciks complain tht they were hungry . then i accompanied rahim go 7-eleven . he bullied me all the wayyyy . he fed me his slurpee . haha . then we were like doing wad most couple do lahh . at the kfc tau . romantic2 den got dis 2p2 guy disturb . haha !! we saw sufyan , nadiah , farizan && nadd there . LoL . we sit2 at blk 836 && rahim's aunt came down cuz rahim ask her to . rahim waved gdbye to me && gave me a kiss . oh yeah . thts all . bye .

facts lah .

2008-08-01T21:27:00.002+08:00

touch rugby training was so boring . i was being controlled , for gdness sake ! although i nvr do anything ehh . zaza kept shouting . zaza kept controlling . i feel like zaza keep thinking tht she is so GREAT in touch rugby . what the hell ! she doesnt hv any right to control me ! i wasnt in the least bit wrong , okayy . tk dpt tangkap bola jek , nnt dea ckp , "Concentrate Nabila . Concentrate ! " && the reason i cried juz nw was bcuz of her . syidah && i did sum critical talking abt people aft rugby at the bus stop . we sat thr for almost an hour , gossiping . wow . gerekkk lah oiie . hahahah ! it was not gossiping , actually . we were STATING THE FACTS . see tht ? we were STATING THE FACTS . dh , bye .